I two read this site a lot. it helped!! Hang in there... We all are here for you!
The night was the worst becuse it's long and everyone is sleeping so I would be on this Web site most of the night reading you not alone I can tell u that
you're not alone! i know it feels that way. there are probably a lot of other people who come to this site who are awake and even feeling like you do right now. it's kind of quiet here at this time, though. sorry you are feeling that way. all three of those feelings are so common to have early on in recovery. they will pass. i know how bad it feels while you're having them though. movies, books, surfing online, anything to take your mind off the negative stuff is good. everyone is here to support you! :)
Hello I too just got back from an aa meeting , I know being alone in my own head is my worst enemy, When I first got sober a person said to me who is the last person you used with? I said I dont know! , She said YOU. the person who is trying to kill you, so after that I jumped into the program, I did not watn to be alone with that person lol. Cleaned up 2008 have used once since then , Grateful for this site, aa, na ,my sponser and ppl who share there stories in how to live in the solution.... not the problem, I felt like you tonight and after the meeting I have hope . You are not alone it is the disease telling you are.... hugs to you
OHHH I so sorry! I just got home from na/aa tonight is the night I go to both. Do you have any up lifting books you can read? Or take a bath with some candles and soft music. It was fuunie at my aa, I had not had a drink in over 8 yrs and this is how easy we can be trigged. I used to drink wine and would carry it in a mason jar. Well at the aa a girl had a mason jar with something in it that looked just like wine on the table. Of course I laughed about that and so did everyone else it was like keep coming back right...Oh I could taste the wine and rememer the buzz. So i know how my addiction can get going again.. Just thought I would share that with you since you are sooo lonely tonight. I hope you feel better I will be hanging out for awhile. It 9:20 in N Idaho..
God Bless
vickie