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[stilltrying1965]

Kim is away to the hospital . I feel scared i will let her down while kim is in hospital for a week . Im trying to be strong and will try with all iv got thati will not fail. its so much harder when we are alone . I miss kim already do you think i can keep going forward as i have nagging doubts. sorry its just the feelings im getting ...james

[stilltrying1965]

THANK YOU ALL WITH YOUR SUPPORT IM STILL CLEAN 17 DAYS SO IM DEALLY HAPPY . IM GETTING THIS DONE THANKS MH.....jAMES

[jt808]

ok not to sound too harsh but i cant bite my toungue... U need to man up an deal with it i kno kim's away an at the hosp. but u need to standup straight an hav sum confidience kim isnt always gona be here to help u you gota do this on ur own sometimes an here is one of these times, i kno it wont b easy but u cant ever have th nagative thoughts cuz they will bring u down buddy be as positive as  can b i really dont wana come off as a jerk but u really need to do this the way u asked that Q about ur nagging doubts really got to me cuz u cant let somethn like this deter u cuz its life an life doesnt always go our way so we all have to deal wth the bumps in the road, so just stay strong an keep as positive as u can be k once agin dnt wana come off wrong i say it cuz i dnt wana see u do anythn stupid. an cuz like u told me if u can do it than theres no reason tht i cant do it so i want u to succesful cuz it gives me hope

[taperme]

You are never wasting our time James, that is what we are all here  for, to help each other. Pharma is right...is there anyone that you can stay with, or can stay with you? Kim needs you to stay as strong as she was for you a few weeks ago. Just remember that and remember that we are all here for you.

[avisg]

You will be fine and strong remember she needs you to be strong for her this week she has been your rock now you need to be hers ok so if you need to talk to us she need to only worry about herself right now we will help lift you up with strength ok:we will lift you both up

[cleanmom]

James, its Jacky, i have been reading you and kims posts the past couple weeks and although i haven't posted to you recently i have been praying greatly and often for you both. Please turn to your Heavenly Father, as only he has the power to heal you. It took me a long time to turn my addiction over to Him and to allow Him and His Atonement to guide me to recovery. You can do this James. Dig deep down inside right now and walk towards Jesus, He will take your hand. You have my hand in yours as well. All my love to you both and my faith in you is strong, i hope you can feel it and use it to your full advantage. God Bless Always. Luv, Jacky

[pharma9]

I am at my work computer and we are quite slow tonight.
James...if you are not sure of yourself alone at home...avoid being alone..Either get a friend to stay with you or go to a relative's house or somewhere where you are surrounded with good clean people and stay for the weekend if they will have you.
Anyway,I think you will be strong enough for anything for you have shown great strength lately and will not risk your healing.
If you can not do this and have access to a computer for the weekend keep posting all day till you fall asleep,
You are important to us and to humanity and stay strong.

[stilltrying1965]

Tapperrme Thank you for your kind words i thought i was wasting all your time. I feel really weak as kim is not here she is my rosk but my time to prove i can do this alone thank you so much ....James

micthele i also want to thank you as just a note makes me feel stronger thank you for that it helps me so much.....James

Gnarly thank you for your kind words and prayers they also mean so much. I will have to prove to myself and kim that i can stay clean without kim keeping a beady eye on me. time for this man to stand on his own two feet thank you so much I will never forget the things you say to help, encourage me I can do this DETRMINATION is the key ....James

[gnarly_1]

Hey James your doing great...I to know what its like having a wife with chronic health issues ...its really tuff to watch them go thew it but you got to stay strong for her as well as you...she dident even want to go into the hospital and leave you James you need to show her your strong and can stand on your own 2 feet...my wife was bedridden for almost 7yrs but then God decided to heal her....pray that kim gets well and she will
in Gods time...mean wile stay true  to yourself and keep posting for support ...I hope you guys got a computer to use again and its there to stay where all here for you James
and I will say a prayer for Kim as well good luck and G od bless.....Gnarly

[micheleTX]

Hey there are no stupid questions, or stupid posts.  We all know what you're going through, so to speak.  Maybe we cannot understand your whole situation because we are not living your life, you are.  But we can always try to help you in any way we can.  So don't be sorry, okay?  Keep posting.  I read your wifes' posts yesterday and was worried about her, and you.  You have friends here, so don't feel like you are alone..:)

[taperme]

James...you CAN and you WILL do this. For yourself, and for Kim. You have 17 days...just keep doing it hour by hour if you need to. And keep posting and reaching out for help. It will be the best "get well" gift you can give Kim...peace of mind that you are ok. You're doing it already, just keep it up.

[stilltrying1965]

just ignore that its a stupid question sorry to waste you timeJames