not as bad as i thought-u got to want it

[rmcalpin]

i have been on here a number of times in the past...reading stories that scared me to death....i was on loritabs for 6 years now.i was abusing them just like everyone else...i was taaking 15 -20 a day.i woud get 72 & be out in 5 or 6 days..i'm on my 5 day now.i went to the store & bought vitamins,b6's imodium,ebsome salts,valuums etc....yesterday was my worst day & i went pull a a early drunk to get thru the day & came home & slept....the 2nd day i have RLS & took a hour long jacuuzi...today i feel fine....i think i was so syked up from reading how bad it was going to be...i wanted to get off of these soooo bad this time & had my mind made up....i'm so proud i did it this long.i never thought it would happen after this many years...i took my last  2 saturday.i took valuums the 1st 3  days & slept for 3 days.im livingproof it can be done.i only took imodium twice which i bought 2 bottles of just to be sure.my husband died a year & a half ago if liver caner & watching him suffer like he did made my mind up.i wouldn't want to die like that & i know my liver has got to be shot too...but ur liver can regenerate itself if its not too far gone..i'm hoping mine isnt already...his liver was too far gone bout time he found out...so i beg all of you to try your damndest to do this...it IS possiblemy son watched his stepdad suffer & i wouldnt want my son to take care of me like that....good luck & u really have got to want it...im so proud & never want to look at another one in my lifetime again. THANKS & HANG IN THERE...if i did it you can too...

[damalabnyc]

That is awesome!! Congratulation!!
I've been contemplating on going CT and finding myself getting tired as fear grows after reading so many horrid stories but I just want to be free!! So great reading your update!

[vicki595]

So, you're two weeks clean, right?  Good for you!  How do you feel?

[TERRIFIED_ALONE]

Wow! Very inspiring for me! Thank you for posting! I haven't started yet...a few things to get in order before I can have down time....this I think is the first post of anyone actually getting thru it with little or no problems!! I pray that I can do it!! MH has been a great inspiration for me! Peace & love to all!!

[rmcalpin]

i have xanax's for the anxiety.thanks :)

[ROSYouralright]

Hi. Welcome to the forum. Sorry about the loss of your husband. Be careful with the energy shots as they can really increase anxiety.

[rmcalpin]

oh i forgot...im drinking also those 5 hour energy shots also