Honesty?

[gxm911]

Hi everyone.  I'm new here.  I've been reading posts concerning withdrawal from opiates.  I'm on day 7 cold-turkey w/d from 100mg oxy addiction.  Actually, I've been to my doc.  He prescribed neurontin for pain and zorfran for nausea.  Yesterday first meal, since Friday.  

So to the point.  I've been lying to everyone (family, friends, therapist, employers) for so long and I feel shameful and hypocrital.  I have an appt. with my therapist today and am wrestling with my conscience about coming clean with her.  I fear her judgment and being disappointed with me.  We have a 5-year relationship and I am afraid she won't trust or believe me when she knows the truth.

Any encouragement or help?

gxm911

[Stars05]

I know how you feel with feeling the embarrassment from this... I'm on day 6 myself from taking perc/vicodin  and its getting better :-)  The only people that know about what I'm going through and did go through is my family and close close friend.. What I've been doing is taking vitamins, exercising and this is my own little thing, drinking red pepper (it detoxes your body)  I put a LITTLE bit in my water, I'm not sure if it works but I'm starting to get my energy back and I'm feeling great about myself... YOU CAN DO THIS!!  Don't give up, it DOES get better!  and remember it only has to hurt once, don't go through it again, I know I won't!  GOOK LUCK HUN!! Keep your head up and know your not alone! :-)

[dwbson]

I told my therapist, my doctor, my husband and my two best friends. There responses were things like "ok now we know what we're dealing with. Let's move on from here", "I'm so glad and proud of you."  The best part for me in their knowing is I feel an accountability to them. They are so supportive and when the cravings start, I think about how proud they are of me and I don't want to let them down!

[gxm911]

I did...and you are all right!  It feels SO GOOD to tell the truth.  Thank you all for your comments and for giving me the courage.

[GMcp]

oh and GOOD LUCK! AND WONDERFUL JOB! :) xo

[GMcp]

a therapist is the best first person to tell the truth too! i was so afraid the first time i told mine after my heroin addiction years ago. telling her helped so much, hostly if you dont tell you are wasting your time and money anyways, so only good positive things are going to come outa this, and i bet you she already knows any ways, there trained to know these things, if she dosnt she isn't going to label you or judge you she will think awesome things of you for coming out with the truth and asking for help there is NO shame in asking for help for this

[LeaAnn807]

You have to be honest with your therapist.  Otherwise, you are wasting your time going there!  Don't be afraid.  Right now you need someone to "not trust or believe you!"  You've been lying.  Right?  The truth is the only way here!  You can do it!!! : )  Congrats on your clean time!