I Relapsed on Smoking 80mlg.Oxy's ...

[CrazykC]

For the past 3 or 4 days I have binged on smoking 80mlg. of Oxy's several times a day. Once I took the first hit of my relapse I did not stop. A friend talked some harsh sence into my head which made me come home today. It is now 1:47 a.m. and I am withdrawling..already.. My lower back hurts, my eyes burn and feel out of focus.. I can't eat, I can't sleep. Im scared to know that I will be getting more tomarrow, because I know I will. I cannot afford rehab agian and im ashamed to ask my dad to take me to the doctor. I dont know what to do I just need some type of encouragement, support and love. Thanks all, Casey

[keekee57]

Hey crazy, for one thing you did the right thing off the bat. You admitted you have a problem. I had such a problem with oc's no matter what I could not stop until my ex wife kicked me out of my house. I had one place to go. Mom and Dad, I felt ashamed, but when i knocked on there door my dad held me in his arms so tight for so long and he took me to his 2nd house in florida for 3 weeks, I detoxed there. He didnt say a word, but I knew he supported me, and just kept telling me to go to meetings. Im in the same boat, I have a script coming tommorow of 10 mg vikes, but my new wife has had it with my stuff of lies and hiding stash all over. Do not feel ashamed of seeing your dad. You will be surprized. You ever heard of the prodigal son, well I can guarantee you he will greet you with open arms. This is a horrible disease we are dealing with and its not your fault. We just have to learn to control it. I wish you the best and please please I rely on people like you to hear from. take care..

[PfizerFighter]

Don't ever be ashamed of yourself, since none of us chooses the path we are on, we simply "end up" in our circumstances. Just like any other addiction, WE are not the addiction, we are the same person, and need to remember that.

More than any other person, our parent(s) are our strongest ally, and I truly believe that having open communication with them will be our guiding light. Although I have yet to "come out" to my own parents about my struggle with codeine, I wish and yearn so badly to be able to do so. Rehab is expensive, yes, but the very fact that you have come forth with your current circumstances tells me that you want someone to talk some more harsh sense into you.

Do you obtain the meds from street connects? Would you ever consider putting in an anonymous tip to the hotline for crimestoppers or the like? It would be tough, but by doing so you eliminate the source, and then you have no choice BUT to quit.