For a week I've been tapering I did 5 pills Sun, Mon, Tues, then Wed I did 2 and those were suppose to be my last, but yesterday I got in to an argument with my husband and I took 2 pills. I was doing pretty good too, I realize now he can be one of my triggers. I'm so disappointed in myself. I get so frustrated he knows that I'm trying to overcome this addiction....I explained how I would feel and I feel he is being very uncaring. I physically and mentally can't do the usual things I normally do for a 3 to 4 days at least. I feel like crying.....
So, today is the first day...I don't have any pills, so that helps. I just have so much to do, and at this point all I'm doing is crying...because of the lack of support from my husband, Because I have this feeling of helplessness and I feel guilt I feel guilt because I can't do the things I usually do. And, that my husband and I are arguing I can't depend on him to help me with things or to overcome this. Not a good situation. But, one thing I've realized I'm not doing this for him, but for me and my kids. At this point I know where I stand with my husband, and it hurts like heck. Keep me in prayers, because there is no turning back......