Hi,
I'm a 28 yo female who had a bad accident in 2010 resulting in numerous injuries. I just had MAJOR back surgery 9 months ago and still need surgery to repair my left hip which is torn as well, a broken tailbone, bone spurs in my pelvis, and after all the imaging for those thing found out I have a bone fusing disorder which has spread to already multiple places.
I'm a RN and despite being in severe pain I just don't want to do this anymore, I don't abuse the medication but I do occasionally need to take more than one pill then I fall a few days short. I'm on OxyContin and I swear those few days are absolute hell, withdrawal from that has got to be the most miserable thing I've EVER experienced.
I'm trying to build my hours back up to take a FMLA leave for surgery and if I didn't have the medication I don't think I could even make it through the whole shift but I don't like the person it has made me. I feel like the medications are controlling my life and I'm actually going to try some alternative meds/therapy until surgery.
But I'm on day 3 of this and I just want to crawl in a hole and die. I have clonidine patches but I'm severely depressed, in pain, can't sleep, sweat freeze sweat freeze CONSTANTLY, can barely get out of bed, and haven't stopped crying for days :(
Is there ANYTHING else that will help ease these symptoms? I just want my life back.
Thank you