Percocet Withdrawl

[mm1775]

i have never been on a forum before in my entire life, but i need some help. This is my day 3 from percocet withdrawl, and im hanging in there i guess. Bad part is my GF of over a year left me because of it, so needless to say, im depressed and it feels impossible that i will recover. I have zero urges to take the devil pills again but i feel i will never get over this or her. she was the one for me and its over.. any words of advise? she lost the connection for me bc as some of you may or may not know it kills your sex drive and makes you affectionless.. it did to me anyway. i have gotten off pain killers before and it was hard, i just couldnt deal with the pain (bulging disc and foot tingle).. but i am never going back thats for sure. Also i started my last semester of college this week and i feel like i will never be able to go. if you have any words of wisdom, lets hear it.
few questions..
1. i weened down to 2 pills for a full week, and then one for a day then quit completely. Any idea when this withdraw will end?
2. anything i can do to make myself feel better? all i take is IB profin and ambien to help sleep.

thanks, i wish everyone luck..

[kmb22]

i am confused..she left you because you quit???  shouldn't you quitting be a good thing?  seeing how your male bits will start to work properly again.

[Nuts1982]

Hang in there.  You need to "fix" yourself before you worry about the GF.  Honestly, I believe if she's really the one and only, you'll be together once all of this works out.  Today's my first day on the forum too so when I read your post, it really hit me.  I'm on day 4 of weaning off suboxone which I was taking on the sly to wean myself off of percs.  I feel absolutely horrible too and am afraid my husband will leave me if he finds out.  He went through the w/d w me before when I was on percs and I swore I'd never dabble again.  Yea... then I got cocky and thought I could have some fun - and now I'm sorely paying.  Just hang in there and keep focusing on that your body is cleaning itself and is going to take time to do so.  I've heard everything to a few days, weeks, whatever so I don't have an exact answer to when.  My thoughts are with you and remember, YOU come first.  Don't worry about her until you're back to your true self.

[Jstar741]

Hang in there dude! Nuts1982 is right, if it's ment to be it'll work it self out! I'm on day 5 myself and this is the first day i'm feeling good about things. I heard The Thomas Recipe helps with the wd. I'm gonna hit CVS on the way home to grab some of the sftuff to give it a try. As for th GF I know that must make this a heck of alot harder but just like the wd that pain will end with time. I'd be careful with the Ambian though (not that I should even talk cause I took one last night) I heard that if taken for to long it could stop you from getting the "rem" sleep that is what you need to feel rested. Hang in there, and stay positive. Think about the good things in your life. You said you're gonna finish school soon. That's awesome! Concentrate on that, you'll be ok.

[Dafishman]

Great job on day 3 & today for reaching out. I totally understand my friend. My wife of 6 years split and filed for divorce when I picked up pills again.  You are right about the effects pills have on all the relationship fronts. Another good reason to stay clean. The w/d's are a necessary evil to get clean but just remember that the are in fact only temporary. It's hell on earth for awhile but the pain leads to gain and eventually FREEDOM BABY!! Stay with the CT you are on the backside of the w/d's and will start to get some relief in small increments. Invite friends on this site to join you in your struggle and most of all don't give!! Be surecut ties with your source and be free with us brother.

May God bless you,

Keep posting!!

Dafishman

[mm1775]

thanks so much for all the responses. i thought for sure i was just typing to myself and no one would answer. my mom was telling me about some interactive or chat room type NA meetings that she wants me to try. so if anyone knows a good one let me know.

The mornings are the worst. I woke up in so much pain i thought i was going to die, and I can barely eat. so far over the course of the 4 1/2 days iv eaten maybe one real meal. I know i must eat to get better, i just physically cant. i made a shake this morning and drank half, along with a jacuzzi and a lot of uncontrollable crying.
As for the GF, she lives right next to me and i definitely know shes the one. all of those sexual and intimate feelings will come back, i know that for sure, i just wish she would realize. I do feel really alone and yes it does feel like im trapped in hell. nothing i try will get me to stop thinking about her. i feel like i cant be anything but negative. dont know why, but i have always been a glass half full kind of guy, maybe it was the drugs.

As for why she left a week before i was on my last pill. im not 100% sure. she actually got addicted to norco for a bit over a week 2 times and i had to ween her off and be there for her but she just cant be with someone who cant be intimate with her. I am the man for her tho, i know it 100%. maybe she will come around after i get better but without her here this all seems for nothing. i wont ever go back or cheat, it was never about getting high really, i just started abusing and it snowballed into 8 pills a day Perc 10/325. Of course i was addicted and took to many i would never lie about that, and everyone in my life knows i take them, always have. it was only the percs that made the sex drive stop. she just thinks it was her ya know... we spent everyday together, and now zero. she said it was ruining our relationship before, i just couldnt get my SH*t together.

Im just so young and i feel like i cant start over, especially without her. im gonna get thru this withdraw and get my life back, i just hope she will be willing to come back to me when i can show her the man i really am off pain killers.

you guys are really nice for replying.

[mm1775]

yes, you would think she would be happy for me to finally quit. but its taken 6 weeks to ween down and its taken a huge toll on us. even tho she withdrew last week she doesnt quite understand the physical affects of weening off or withdrawing. i dont feel i will have any trouble finding another girl, but i haven't so much as looked at another girl the way i did her sense we started dating. and i guess i would be above average looking, with a college background, very smart and treated her like a princess. never raised my voice or said something bad about her. i just couldn't kiss her, or have sex with her as much as she wanted and it killed her. i did kiss her like a million times a day but she said she didnt feel any passion. i said i loved her also a million times a day. she still says she didnt feel she was the girl for me. iv been through breakups before but this was different.

[Downey]

Your stronger than you think and I can tell that by your post. Still getting off the pills even with your GF leaving says alot about the inner strength you have. I want to get off the pills but keep my bf around for a few reasons and one is he has the pills and I'm to frightened to get off these pills---especially being all alone.

Take care,

Downey

[Nuts1982]

Hope you're doing better.  I agree with "Downey" - you are stronger than you think.  Another thing I found that helps is to listen to really upbeat music (nothing that makes you think of your GF, but the type that you'd work out to).  Someone posted that it helps because it raises your endorphins (which you have very little of when you are w/drawing.  I've been doing it all day and I really believe it is helping.  Hang in there, Sweetie.  You'll get through this and be better for it.

[mm1775]

yes, i am getting stronger by the day i think. the bad part is, is that she thinks it took her breaking it off with me to get clean. thats not true, i love her more than anything in this world, and i want to show her. i just got off the phone w her, and she still thinks all the hurt i did in the past wont go away and that my personality is not what she is looking for but she is wrong. i am that guy, i am spontaneous, happy, intimate and fun. it ***** i couldnt show her earlier. i dont know if she will ever come back but there may be hope.

as for the pills, i stopped monday and im starting to feel better. i eat a bit more everyday, and i walk as much as possible. 3 walks yesterday, only one today but im about to go again after this. back hurts like hell but not as much as missing her. i hope tomorrow will be even better, bc i refuse to see her until im better.
sorry for the relationship talk, i know this is about withdrawals and drugs, but for me this is that hardest part.
i will help as many ppl as i can once i get better
thanks again, everyone