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Confessed to my mom, she's helping me taper.
I decided I couldn't do it alone. I finally broke down and spilled everything. It was pretty liberating. I printed out GaGuy's list for withdrawl help and gave it to her. She is going to hold on to the few pills I have left and give me them only when totally neccessary so that I don't have to take time off of work. She even offered to go buy all the vitamins, supplements, and OTC meds that are suggested in the Thomas reciepe. I expected to be disowned after admitting to it, but she wants to do anything she can to help me.
I realized that going it alone is just too hard. If you have someone to confide it, do it. I have a whole new outlook on quitting now. I really think I am going to be successful. I have no choice. Mom is like a hawk. She loves me to death, but after this is over, will never let it slide again. I am really thankful, and will in no way let her down. Wish me luck. I will post my progress. Thanks in advance for support!
I realized that going it alone is just too hard. If you have someone to confide it, do it. I have a whole new outlook on quitting now. I really think I am going to be successful. I have no choice. Mom is like a hawk. She loves me to death, but after this is over, will never let it slide again. I am really thankful, and will in no way let her down. Wish me luck. I will post my progress. Thanks in advance for support!
Congrats to you on your decision to quit and give them to your Mom
I am in USA only have my sister here , which at least have her and gave my pills to her and only kept what i needed for a week then asked for more then , so your on the right road to recovery ....... cut back slowly and then quarter them ...........
That's what i did 120mg then 20mg and then quarters during the day 8 quarters looks like a lot evened out during the day and works well ........ I am only clean 4 days but cant imagine taken what i used too 120mg a day from my doctor , never bought on the street but hey ...........
Good Luck and you have a very understanding mother ........... she is great and understanding ....we worry what others will think of us but see , she is there for you
Good look with it .....YOU CAN DO IT ........... HAVE FAITH !
I am in USA only have my sister here , which at least have her and gave my pills to her and only kept what i needed for a week then asked for more then , so your on the right road to recovery ....... cut back slowly and then quarter them ...........
That's what i did 120mg then 20mg and then quarters during the day 8 quarters looks like a lot evened out during the day and works well ........ I am only clean 4 days but cant imagine taken what i used too 120mg a day from my doctor , never bought on the street but hey ...........
Good Luck and you have a very understanding mother ........... she is great and understanding ....we worry what others will think of us but see , she is there for you
Good look with it .....YOU CAN DO IT ........... HAVE FAITH !
Just wanted to thank GaGuy for his compilation of the Thomas recipe and other suggestions. Started to feel a little bit sick after work today, but took a long shower, a couple advils, and stretched for a while, and it actually made me feel a lot better.
Secondly, I think confiding in my Mom has made me realize that the anxiety and depression that I felt during my previous attempts to quit alone were largely due to the fact that I felt so isolated. Though I am getting a little achey and have the stomach bug; the anxiety and depression is tolerable.
I guess I just wanted to tell people how great it feels to confide in somebody in person. Without a doubt all of you guys are incredible and this forum is a Godsend, but being able to talk to someone in person just makes it so much easier. I have so much more confidence in my potential for quiting and staying clean.
You guys are amazing people. It is amazing to have some many kind people that you can relate too, and who have experienced your frustrations first hand.
YOU ALL HAVE BEEN AMAZING TO ME RIGHT OFF THE BAT, AND I JUST WANTED TO MAKE SURE EVERY ONE OF YOU KNOWS THAT I AM HERE FOR YOU JUST THE SAME. IF YOU FEEL LIKE RANTING TO SOMEBODY, VENTING, OR JUST CHATTING, I AM ALL FOR AIM OR EMAILS.
LASTLY.....Something I have learned of this forum;
The are two kinds of drug addicts. Some forsake all others to get whatever they want. People who would even step over their own family to get their fix. ... Then their are those who are addicted that are the kindest, most loyal, most respectful people you could find on the planet. Those who have just gotten themselves in too deep, but would never want to let their addiction hurt anyone. And if it has they strive to rectify it any way they can. I think the latter group gathers here. You people are truly incredible. I am proud to be part of this pseudo-family.
Okay I will stop rambling. I am just really excited about all the positive responses I recieved from you guys. For the last time...today....YOU GUYS KICK ***!!!! Tell me your stories/progress, I like to talk, but I am pretty damn good listener.
Until tomorrow....Night all!
Secondly, I think confiding in my Mom has made me realize that the anxiety and depression that I felt during my previous attempts to quit alone were largely due to the fact that I felt so isolated. Though I am getting a little achey and have the stomach bug; the anxiety and depression is tolerable.
I guess I just wanted to tell people how great it feels to confide in somebody in person. Without a doubt all of you guys are incredible and this forum is a Godsend, but being able to talk to someone in person just makes it so much easier. I have so much more confidence in my potential for quiting and staying clean.
You guys are amazing people. It is amazing to have some many kind people that you can relate too, and who have experienced your frustrations first hand.
YOU ALL HAVE BEEN AMAZING TO ME RIGHT OFF THE BAT, AND I JUST WANTED TO MAKE SURE EVERY ONE OF YOU KNOWS THAT I AM HERE FOR YOU JUST THE SAME. IF YOU FEEL LIKE RANTING TO SOMEBODY, VENTING, OR JUST CHATTING, I AM ALL FOR AIM OR EMAILS.
LASTLY.....Something I have learned of this forum;
The are two kinds of drug addicts. Some forsake all others to get whatever they want. People who would even step over their own family to get their fix. ... Then their are those who are addicted that are the kindest, most loyal, most respectful people you could find on the planet. Those who have just gotten themselves in too deep, but would never want to let their addiction hurt anyone. And if it has they strive to rectify it any way they can. I think the latter group gathers here. You people are truly incredible. I am proud to be part of this pseudo-family.
Okay I will stop rambling. I am just really excited about all the positive responses I recieved from you guys. For the last time...today....YOU GUYS KICK ***!!!! Tell me your stories/progress, I like to talk, but I am pretty damn good listener.
Until tomorrow....Night all!
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"I'm about recovery and not whats the frigging difference between Lortab and frigging Norcos...... "
Very postitive post...So glad she is tough and won't give in, that is what it takes...That is why they call it tough love....Be so lucky, not all moms are that way, and what she went out to buy you brought tears to my eyes...
keep us posted
r2r
keep us posted
r2r
Thanks to everyone for the support. Today went really well. Kinda weird waking up in the morning and having your mom hand you oxy, but I think our plan is going to work. She doesn't **** around, and no amount of begging is going to deter her from the schedule we have.
I didn't think she could top how kind and understanding she was last night...but she did. She went out and bought me a silver chain with a little medallion of St. Andrew (my name). A reminder that I am starting a new point in my life I guess. Something I probably won't take off for the rest of my life. That and being sober are probably going to be the two best gifts I'll recieve in my life.
So thats the story so far. I'll be posting frequently. Hope to here from you all again.
PS. to Beachtowel - I am a guy. Not sure if my post sounded girly, or if you were confused because I was talking about my mom. But I just thought I'd throw that out there.
Thanks again to everyone.
I didn't think she could top how kind and understanding she was last night...but she did. She went out and bought me a silver chain with a little medallion of St. Andrew (my name). A reminder that I am starting a new point in my life I guess. Something I probably won't take off for the rest of my life. That and being sober are probably going to be the two best gifts I'll recieve in my life.
So thats the story so far. I'll be posting frequently. Hope to here from you all again.
PS. to Beachtowel - I am a guy. Not sure if my post sounded girly, or if you were confused because I was talking about my mom. But I just thought I'd throw that out there.
Thanks again to everyone.
Without my Mom I would either be rotting in a prison somewhere or I would be dead and that is a fact.......
you see I quit using over 100 times in my life but always went back it was all I ever knew from age 13 when I was in pain physical and mental.......and a boat load of mental I carried one particluar core issue around with me for 37 yrs the entire length of my using addiction......
I don't mean to minimize anyones addiction out there but I was into Heroin, Crack, Cocaine, Meth, Downers, Benzos, Dilaudid, Fentyanl, speed, weed, hash and hash oil, Acid, Mescaline, PCP and every pain killer you could imagine....
I loved the needle it provided a rush, straight to hammered in seconds........I lived in dope houses, flop houses, Hippie communes, cars, streets I slept in places you could never imagine...I was a professional thief, actor, liar and left victims with everyone I met.......Since 1972 to today I have spent over five years in jails accross the country....... I have been in very bloody situations and left for dead a few times a bloody mess.......Three times I have overdosed and went into a seizure and then a coma where I woke up in a hospital and all three times when I opened my eyes my Mom was sitting right next to me where she slept in a chair until her son woke up and nobody could tell her that she had to leave her oldest son........
My mission today is to help addicts and to one day provide a safe haven for addicts so that they can get the help they need to recovery and not get caught living in the insanity of addiction for 37 years like I did.......
I'm about recovery and not whats the frigging difference between Lortab and frigging Norcos......
Ga Guy send me an invite on yahoo IM @beachtowel1 and I would be more than happy to talk with you about recovery anytime.......your always welcome.........
you see I quit using over 100 times in my life but always went back it was all I ever knew from age 13 when I was in pain physical and mental.......and a boat load of mental I carried one particluar core issue around with me for 37 yrs the entire length of my using addiction......
I don't mean to minimize anyones addiction out there but I was into Heroin, Crack, Cocaine, Meth, Downers, Benzos, Dilaudid, Fentyanl, speed, weed, hash and hash oil, Acid, Mescaline, PCP and every pain killer you could imagine....
I loved the needle it provided a rush, straight to hammered in seconds........I lived in dope houses, flop houses, Hippie communes, cars, streets I slept in places you could never imagine...I was a professional thief, actor, liar and left victims with everyone I met.......Since 1972 to today I have spent over five years in jails accross the country....... I have been in very bloody situations and left for dead a few times a bloody mess.......Three times I have overdosed and went into a seizure and then a coma where I woke up in a hospital and all three times when I opened my eyes my Mom was sitting right next to me where she slept in a chair until her son woke up and nobody could tell her that she had to leave her oldest son........
My mission today is to help addicts and to one day provide a safe haven for addicts so that they can get the help they need to recovery and not get caught living in the insanity of addiction for 37 years like I did.......
I'm about recovery and not whats the frigging difference between Lortab and frigging Norcos......
Ga Guy send me an invite on yahoo IM @beachtowel1 and I would be more than happy to talk with you about recovery anytime.......your always welcome.........
You are so lucky to have a mom like that. My mom has always been there for my through my addiction as well.
Beach has a self confessed softie spot just around his heart for all the caring mothers in the world. We now know his Achilles heal. Attack!! :)
These posts have drawn tears, I am so happy for you and I'm happy that everyone is being so nice, it's been really depressing all the hate.
Mom, I think your love and compassion is a gift from God that only a mother understands........
Your daughter thought you would turn on her and throw her in the street that is because in her mind
she felt worthless as an addict who lost control........
To not turn your back on your daughter is inspiring but don't forget the tough love too......lol
I truly believe that this family is blessed.........
Your daughter thought you would turn on her and throw her in the street that is because in her mind
she felt worthless as an addict who lost control........
To not turn your back on your daughter is inspiring but don't forget the tough love too......lol
I truly believe that this family is blessed.........
Congrats! and congrats to your wonderful mom!
You are SOOO right about it being liberating to fess up and get some support, love and interest in helping, it makes it all so doable, huh?
Keep us posted on your progress.
Karen
You are SOOO right about it being liberating to fess up and get some support, love and interest in helping, it makes it all so doable, huh?
Keep us posted on your progress.
Karen
I agree Beach... It was a uplifting post... Way to go Uphill... tell your mom how great she is..
No offense to anyone but this was the best post of the day by far...........
frigging awesome..............now use your mom to help you and get clean.......
frigging awesome..............now use your mom to help you and get clean.......
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