Hello everyone,
I just signed up on this because i saw a lot of questions and good, honest answers from people who don't judge.
In short, this is my story:
I'm 27, have been smoking weed daily for at least 9 years. In worse periods I smoke 5 to 7 joints a day. Tried to quit a few times before, but couldn't really leverage myself into really doing it. (I'm still young! I still have all the time in the world! blah blah blah ) Now I really want to kick the stuff, because I'm getting married soon (been together for 8y, he never smoked weed) and thinking about having children.
The "plan" was to kick the stuff and start trying to get pregnant as soon as my count hit 0 (now my count is on 'over max', meaning the machine doesn't count that high, so we were thinking at least 6 months, maybe a year). It would be an extra motivation not to relapse!
I've been smoking graduately less over the last week and a half, because it's an enourmous strain on my body. If I go "cold turkey", I get all the side effects people associate with pot: paranoia, depression, ... plus I can't eat, sleep or concentrate. But so far I'm doing really good and I plan to get completely rid of the stuff before easter. I told a few trustees and everyone is rooting for me! I'm feeling confident this time I'll be succeeding :)
Now for the bad part: I'm late. 4 days now. I'm going to get a test or maybe even see my doctor tomorrow, to make sure what is going on (It might just be the stress) but what IF I'm pregnant? What would you do?
I always told my guy I would abort a pregnancy if it would happen before I got clean (which is legal & morally accepted in my country), because I'm scared of what may go wrong with the baby because of the stuff in my system. But now, I really don't know: our "schedule" said to get pregnant after i detoxed, but preferably still this year. It feels wrong to terminate a pregnancy, knowing well that in 6 months we might be trying to get pregnant.
Should I go cold turkey and deal with the side effects for the few weeks/months to come? Should I go ahead as planned and graduately quit to reduce the stress of detoxing, or should I terminate "just to make sure?" ...
What would you do if you were in my shoes? And why?
(Yes, I know, I still have to make sure first, but I want to have a plan (as) ready (as possible) by the time I take the test)