YOU CAN DO THIS. YOU HAVE DONE THIS. you know its not easy but since you havent been using long maybe ut will be better. the sooner you get it over the better....good luck and keep us posted
Isn't it weird how the mind just picks up where it left off.......it sucks, but I think your doctor may know something is up.....when you asked for clonidine.......it's used for withdrawal now......so....... try melatonin (sublingual) it really does help, and you haven't been back on the wagon that long. Take care.
Nauty..............
Aren't husbands awesome? Mine use to keep my pills locked up in a safe so I wouldn't use too many at once. You have to love that.
I can completely relate to how you feel about your daughter. One of my daughters did this over a year ago and the description you used about the color going out of your world is so spot on. I think it's a given that we who have the "addict gene" tend to weave in and out of depressive states of mind, but you really did a smart thing by writing this down, and even better posting it. That tells me you have true hope and a sincere desire to be clean. You can and you will do this, please don't give up.
Oh and by the way all of the people you see going about their lives and passing you by are all wrapped up in dramas too, you just can't see it because you feel lost right now, but remember you aren't.
Lisa