Day #4 and I feel stuck in a rut...

[Iwillnotgiveup]

I don't feel much better today.   Why at night do I feel like I have a fever?  I am sick of my bedroom.  Don't know if the depression is because I feel stuck or part of WD's.  I am all over the place and looking for a reason to take just one.  I'm not saying I will but I am going thru the whole thing of one won't hurt.  Even though I know 1 will lead to 2 then on and on.  I keep saying to myself that I am better than this and I know I am but it's kicking my butt.  Ugh  I feel like crap and I'm sick of it.  I am so pissed that I am trying and feeling worse.  Thank God I threw them in the toilet.  I don't know if I could refrain if they were here.  I'm glad they are not because I don't think I am that strong.  I have stayed away from my friends because one of them has an endless supply and is always saying, do you need anything,  do you have enough.  I have asked over and over to please stop because I don't want them anymore and still my friend will ask.  I am in a state right now and don't need this.  

[selfinduced]

I have not read the above post so I'll probably repeat, but PLEASE hang in there. That one pill song is just your addict brain doing it's last attempt to get you to feed it some poison. Day 9 was a BIG turning point for me. Give it some more time, you'll see how your mind settles and your body strengthens. 30 days you'll feel really amazing. Time is all you need now. Stay busy and distracted. Good luck!

[Missshawn]

Stay strong..hang in there..on day 4 I felt bad..but I went for a walk.. Day 5 I was good..day 8 is even better

[YesLife4Me]

There IS Hope!    So many success stories on here from people helping people.    Stick close to us hun...we will help you get through this!

[IBKleen]

There is always hope hun. Always...

[Iwillnotgiveup]

Thanks Ron,  So there may be a light at the end of the tunnel for me after all.  Thats all I want.  To know that there is hope.  

[Iwillnotgiveup]

She is the only source.   My Doctor does not know.  I have never asked my Doc for pain meds.  When I told her about the pain and how bad it can get she told me to take the ibuprofen 800 mgs and thats what I have been doing for the past 4 days.  I hear what your saying about setting myself up mentally for relapse.  I am also going thru the  change so I don't know whats what. I got the worst of both worlds.   I keep asking for strength.  I am determined and just keep praying that I can do this.  I go from one extreme to the other.  

[Norco1947]

Hi , I understand your pain , I thought my pain was something only i went thru.
I got so sick from my 100mg a day Norco addiction i just wanted to die.
When i quit i went into W/D and big time pain . The pain started to ease after a few days without pills . Seems the pills were makeing my pain worse .
Now at 3 months pill free i still have some pain issues but now i get some relief from just Advil and heat . I find after a few hours of pain it eases with out drugs . No it does not go away but it is liveable .
Funny now i can have some pain and still be smileing and happy .
I was never happy and smileing  while using pain pills , Just hated everything , wanted to do nothing but take my pills.
Keep fighting , get your life back , You can do this ... Ron

[YesLife4Me]

Everyone is different on how long it takes to start feeling better.   Usually by day 4 I noticed a huge improvement, but some people take another day or two longer.    I used to wake up sweating like crazy, throw off the covers then find myself too cold.   It took about a week before that stopped.   If I wore jammies it helped absorb some of the sweat and I didn't get chilled from the air hitting the sweat on my body.    

You are setting yourself up mentally to relapse by thinking about how just one pill will make you feel better.   First we get the thought.   The more we think about it, the more likely we are going to act on it.    Whenever that thought would pop into my head during acute withdraw, I would remind myself that when that pill wears off I will have to do this all over again.   Salvation does not lie within that evil white pill.  

As far as your friend goes, you are going to have to get stern with her and let her know that if she keeps asking you if you want or need anything that you are going to have to put some distance between the two of you temporarily because she is triggering you even though she means well.  Is she your only source or are you getting pain meds from your Doctor too?    

[IBKleen]

We relapse mentally and spiritually before we pick up a drug. You are well on your way. You need to do something before it is too late. You are not going to change your friend's mind. She will think what she thinks. You had better put some distance between the two of you. You need to surround yourself with people in recovery. I pray that you do that before it is too late.

[Iwillnotgiveup]

Hi,  I want to explain a little about my friend.  She blames herself for my injuries.  I was driving to work and she called me.  5 seconds later I was hit by a driver who went right thru a stop sign.  My friend blames herself.  I had to have surgery and have a plate put in my neck and also I had lower back surgery.  She says if she didn't call the accident would never have happened.  Not true.  The other driver would have gone thru that stop sign anyway.  She says she doesn't want to see me in pain and I know that over the years I have taken advantage of that.  I was getting pain pills and I never had to worry.  She is my best friend and I know she has the guilts.  I so appreciate all of your advice.  I am worried about the future without pain meds because of all of my injuries.  But I am giving it my all.  I don't want to lose my friend just my addiction.

[Norco1947]

Hi ,  What you feel is normal detox W/D . The first 100 hours of detox is the hardest after that it should ease a bit every few days . By day 5-10 you will start to improve .
Glad to hear you got rid of your pills . you can't take what you don't have .
Sound like your friend does not understand , If really a friend .
Are you eating & drinking lots of water , takeing Vit's ? You must eat to heal .
You are stronger then you think , Takes a strong person to fight as hard as you have the last 4 days .
Keep fighting , in a few days you will feel so much better .. Ron  

[Leaveurfearsbehind]

I felt like I had a fever along with sweats for the first week or so. Just hang in there and it will pass. I just kept telling myself that tomorrow will be better. It's a slow process but you will see improvement with a little more time. I would be freezing one minute then burning up the next. Just remember that it will pass!