help how long?

[howmanyarethereofus]

I am at day 3 cold  turkey for a heavy oxy habit, about 4x80's a day some times more if I could get my hands on it sometimes less. I am sick and tired of worrying and being broke.  I am barely functioning to type this and I was just wondering how long until I will be able to lift my head again?I haven't eaten and have thrown up tons.  Please help me, any support would be appreciated.  Got to go, can't lift my head anymore but can't sleep.

[guv338]

Ditto.  You can do this.  Check my bio, I also was on heavy doses.  My dr. told me to take 15 - 40mg oc a day.  (5 in am, 5 at noon and 5 at night.)  Like liscamdave said, WD
was a nightmare, but today I am at day 86 without OC and day 60 without Sub.  I have
my ups and downs but have not missed a day of work since the first week.  You will feel
better if you will just push through the haze.  Its a real struggle but going back cannot be an option.  How could anyone want to do the WD more than once in a life time.  I will not
ever do that again.  I Could never ask my family to go through that with me again.  Its not weird that your faith is deepened, God is always there for us if we will just ask for his forgiveness and help.  I know this for a fact.  I felt the hand of God on my back each night
guiding me through the haze, he'll guide you too.  Just Ask.  guv

[liscamdave]

You can do this. Like you, I was taking high, high amounts of Oxy's. On most days I took about 10 80's. Some days, I took 12 and some days 15. I was really, really bad. My w.d was a nightmare. I didn't sleep for almost 3 weeks and the RLS lasted well into 2 full weeks. I had NO Energy for almost 2 months. You can do this. I know it seems like you can't and that you will never feel ok again, but you will. Each day will get better and better...it can be done. Trust me....

[howmanyarethereofus]

thanks so much for the words of encouragement.  As I feel worse my faith seems to be tested but deepen in a wierd way.  I will try what you recommended but it just seems like my habit is much bigger than most who are posting (don't get me wrong no matter how much ur taking its a struggle to overcome) but I just wonder if I will be feeling worse for a lot longer and that makes me feel like giving up.  It seems like to detox from 1 or 2 30's a day would be a lot easier than the 300-400mg that I am coming down from.  For those of you reading this that feel overwhelmed by detoxing from smaller amounts think about how bad it could be - thanks again for the support cathy5841 and guv338.  just taking it second by second at this point.  I don't even smoke except for when I have a beer but I have been smoking just so I know what I am supposed to be doing with myself for a couple of minutes - like it has some purpose.  Wierd huh? bye

[guv338]

I highly recommend God to help find  your inner strenght.  I know it was all that got me through those long nights. As you have heard, it does get better.  I am sure thats not helping alot now.  I remember the days that my head felt like it weight a hundred pounds.
It was so hard just to stay upright.  The exercise is also great advise.  I couldnt start right away, but as soon as you can. I think anything that helps pump adrenaline helped boost my spirits a little.  Keep up the fight and beat the demon.  

[howmanyarethereofus]

how did you work through this? That makes me feel almost nauseaus lol but also offers me some inspiration.  I just can't move and I have taken so many hot baths that they are just not helping anymore.  I guess I need to find inner strength and God at this time because it is not getting any easier.  I just keep thinking this is what I have to look forward to day after day after day.  The weakness, the apathy ugh!  I don't mean to complain, things could be worse I guess. I could still be using but sometimes that seems like the only thing to do to relieve  myself from this junk but I know the regret will also feel intolerable.  All this suffering over the last few days for nothing.  Thanks for writing Cathy5841, thanks for the support.

[cathy5841]

hey you are in the right place.  i had a pretty big oxy habit and went c/t.  for a week i was sick and weak, but i went to work..lol..on day 7 i was nt good but day 8 was btter but just a little. each day after that saw improvement.  there were a few more random rough days, but most saw some improvement.  sleep took much longer to return and the energy was slow too.  as soon as you can start exercising...i know that sounds insane, but it helps on several levels.  i started walking, just to the mailbox and kept adding to it...try it!!! also check out some after care...it is so important...good luck and keep us posted..