im a mess

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

Hello my friends im a mess so stressed because im failing in my battle i have no strength.  This diease is killing me ive got pain management in morning n surgery app on 29th im stresssed they gonna put me on high doses n have to really start agsin i dont have it in me anymore theres no fight left in me.  Im sorry ive let use down n myself just a mess fight now hanging n just wanna cave

[Sonrissa]

Oh AJ honey, I'm so sorry.  Please don't give up. Never give up. I pray things will change and start happening for the better. Keep the faith, and try to have a positive attitude. Look for solutions, for they are there.  I wish I had better advice for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Please try to keep checking in and let us know how you are doing.  All the best, sweetie!

XO

[Jtb12]

Surgery after getting clean is always stressful. I worry about it all the time, but I know now what I wish I would of known the first time around, like only taken a pill if I can't stand the pain any longer ect.  When I became addicted I was given 5 oxycodones a day from the beginning which maybe I might of needed the first couple of days after surgery but I definitely didnt need that many everyday. Just take it one day at a time. Best of luck

[VICourageous]

HELLO!!!!! How are YOU holding UP??? Please just take some deep breaths and be SO Grateful that you are ALIVE!! All we have is just for today..Please be Happy for that and stay strong..We are here for YOU all the Way!
Bless

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

Hey vick ive been on tramadol instead of ms contin but since i had a bad epileptic fit n landed on my shoulder which has turned out to b a broken collsrbone ive had for ten yrs lazy drs all tjose yrs ago told me it was perm dislocated what a load of **** ay sorry makes me mad so in mornin i got pain management n the surg app is to c if yheyll operate its nearly midnight here n my credit runs out in 9 min il be in city in morning il find a wifi setup somewhere lol
I just hope n pray they dont think im seekin the xan jam the strong stuff i dont want it i just want them to treat me like a person n not make me feel like im scum n nothing but. Problem
Mwah vick im a gonna stay as close as i can i need my family right now n you guys r it n  love yas all never any jugdement for that im forever grateful

[vicki595]

Hey!  Listen, try to get more time on your phone!  There are also public places that have internet access so look around...you need to stay in touch right now.

What's the surgery for?  Have you been on pain med all this time?  Pain Management is very helpful to many people so I don't want you giving up! Listen to them and give it a try, okay?

What else is going on? Bring us up to date!  xo

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

Im sadder to cos i only have twon half hrs left of credit n wont b able to talk to my medhelp family i cant no b able to contact u guys cant go thru this alone

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

Thank u so much for ur kind words i love my medhelp faniky n this site without it id be dead i reckon. Ive been trying to fight the good fight for a couple yrs now its the worst ride of my life. I kerp tryin n get knocked back further than i was before so down depressed just want out of this world but then i think of those i love n couldnt hurt them like that but feel inside the the battle is lost n im only lying to myself i hate it im strong for a bit then weak for twice as long idk what to do anymore im hopin pain management has a better suggeston i really do

[Gettingalifeagain]

Hello there..... so please hang in there until you start getting some replies.
I just want to say that I don't know you, and if you don't believe in yourself, I for one do.  It sounds like you have battled this before, please believe there is one more fight left in you.  PLease wait until the miracle happens.  You haven't let ANYONE down.  YOu are stronger than you know..
Just keep putting one foot in front of the other, and fight the good fight.  Keep your eyes on the prize.....we all support you here...hugs