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Watson 503 Addiction, PLEASE HELP!!!
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Ok, well for the past year I have been taking Watson 503/540 everyday. It started out with just 1-2 when I got home from work. Then I started bringing them to work and would take them at like 4pm. (right before I left) then I realized how much easier it made working with a bunch of b*tches. So I started taking them on my way to work. Then it became 2 on my way to work, 2 at lunch 4 when I got off. Now whenever I skip the normal times I would dose, I start immediately withdrawing. I REALLY want to quit. I am tired of basing my life around pills, and making sure I have enough, and driving 2 hours to get them....its a pain in my a**, and I am really sick and tired of it.
I NEED help stopping. I do not want to go to rehab. I won't go to rehab.
I am just looking for some answers, and I can't seem to find the ones I am looking for.
So I figured someone here would be of some help.
I have made it through 2 almost 3 days until I broke last time, How long does it take until the pain and sick feeling passes?
I am just looking for some sort of time frame to give me a goal to work towards.
Ok, well for the past year I have been taking Watson 503/540 everyday. It started out with just 1-2 when I got home from work. Then I started bringing them to work and would take them at like 4pm. (right before I left) then I realized how much easier it made working with a bunch of b*tches. So I started taking them on my way to work. Then it became 2 on my way to work, 2 at lunch 4 when I got off. Now whenever I skip the normal times I would dose, I start immediately withdrawing. I REALLY want to quit. I am tired of basing my life around pills, and making sure I have enough, and driving 2 hours to get them....its a pain in my a**, and I am really sick and tired of it.
I NEED help stopping. I do not want to go to rehab. I won't go to rehab.
I am just looking for some answers, and I can't seem to find the ones I am looking for.
So I figured someone here would be of some help.
I have made it through 2 almost 3 days until I broke last time, How long does it take until the pain and sick feeling passes?
I am just looking for some sort of time frame to give me a goal to work towards.
Just my immediate manager, no one else. She is the most wonderful boss I have ever had. I find myself worrying about what the suits above her will do to me, upon return. I cant live my life in constant fear and maintain soberity, I have learned this through my group counseling. There are men of God in my classes! That were powerless over the same drug I was! That is how strong and powerful these drugs are, and the damage they do to our bodies and minds.
I still beat myself up over it though, IF ONLY I COULD OF BEEN STRONGER, I say that to myself constantly.
I still beat myself up over it though, IF ONLY I COULD OF BEEN STRONGER, I say that to myself constantly.
a job is nothing compared to what addiction may do to us if we dont stop.
anything that is more important to us than being clean is a thing that leaves up vulnerable to relapse.
being clean has to be number 1 in our lives, or we risk not being.
cant get a job if your dead : /
anything that is more important to us than being clean is a thing that leaves up vulnerable to relapse.
being clean has to be number 1 in our lives, or we risk not being.
cant get a job if your dead : /
with my position, when I go back to work, I know I am going to have to do the work of 3 people, in order to make amends. I am bonded and have power of attorney with government contracts. I have found in going to NA/AA they are people just like me, ordinary, everyday, people that work and are entrusted. I know I am going to get the typical nosy people asking me WHERE was I? and then the concerned people asking me questions. I am certain there are numerous rumors as to my whereabouts. Then when my recent run in is posted in the paper, that will just add to it. If you were to meet me, you would never in a million years believe what I did in order to obtain my doc. All I know is, I have turned it all over to God, and believe he will give me the intelligence to answer these questions upon my return. I am still very embarrassed and angry I wasnt strong enough to quit on my own. Addiction doesnt discriminate, anyone can be affected by it.
Got it! LOL. I will email you mine.
And I am starting to think that is a HUGE part of all of this. Talking to people that actually KNOW what you are talking about.
People that dont understand expect you to just STOP, and be OK. Like no big deal.
And I am starting to think that is a HUGE part of all of this. Talking to people that actually KNOW what you are talking about.
People that dont understand expect you to just STOP, and be OK. Like no big deal.
I am still fearful of losing my job. I know they will now drug test me, at random. Not that I will relapse, cause I am determined not to, but just the idea of having that stigma on me, is crushing to my self worth. I know it is a disease, and how can I control that? I had to do inpatient, cause I let my addiction to opiates control me. How sick is that?
I have a co worker out of the country on vacation, and the other two with scheduled vacations while I am off, doing outpatient rehab on STD. I am so embarrassed. I cant even call them, cause I know they will ask questions. What am I going to say? I dont like lying to people, so I just dont talk as a result. Maybe when I am stronger, I can admit I am an addict to the world.
I have a co worker out of the country on vacation, and the other two with scheduled vacations while I am off, doing outpatient rehab on STD. I am so embarrassed. I cant even call them, cause I know they will ask questions. What am I going to say? I dont like lying to people, so I just dont talk as a result. Maybe when I am stronger, I can admit I am an addict to the world.
WHOOPS! I did not know we are not allowed to post email stuff.
Sorry =/
Still learning the rules.
Sorry =/
Still learning the rules.
Rehab and inpatient stuff scare the **** out of me! Plus I am affraid by doing something like that I would lose my job. So I am forcing myself to be strong!!
No worries about being judged by me. I am the LAST person that needs to pass any judgement on to anyone.
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Feel free to email me whenever.
No worries about being judged by me. I am the LAST person that needs to pass any judgement on to anyone.
***@****
Feel free to email me whenever.
I have found also,. that the older we get, the less adaptable our bodies are to change. I quit taking Tranxene 7.5 about 7 years ago, cold turkey, with no side effects. I just decided one day I was tired of them, and quit.. My opiate addiction was much much worse. I would do very risky things to obtain them. I would say I was going to quit, but never could. Not for long. I think going to NA/AA is the best thing to do to prevent relapse. When I introduce myself, Hi I am Anna and I am an addict/alcoholic that now, more and more people in there are also saying they are addict/alcoholics also. I have also found strength in just listening to others, that have been there, done that.
Thanks =/
I really wish someone would have told me this could happen. I really had no clue what addiction really was. I used to do lots of meth years ago, and when I was ready to quit, I just stopped. I didn't think twice about it.
So I thought it was like that with everything.
Oh well, I can only move forward, and I know that I will get through this. Luckily it is Thur. so the worst should be here Saturday, so atleast I will be at home and not suffering through work.
I really wish someone would have told me this could happen. I really had no clue what addiction really was. I used to do lots of meth years ago, and when I was ready to quit, I just stopped. I didn't think twice about it.
So I thought it was like that with everything.
Oh well, I can only move forward, and I know that I will get through this. Luckily it is Thur. so the worst should be here Saturday, so atleast I will be at home and not suffering through work.
The pool sounds like a good idea. You shouldn't feel stupid. It is very hard to go through this when you don't know what to expect. You may feel better by day 4 it just depends on your body and how it was changed by the pills. This isn't my first time going through this.
I suffer from a bad back and I am pretty young to be going through this. I find the days when I would love to take a pain pill for my back I take 2 Aleve and it takes the edge off. I just have to keep going and remember that the pills are no good for me and will only keep me from being happy.
I was able to stop taking my pills on a Friday and by Tuesday I felt much better. I only had to deal with 2 days at work with feeling yucky! I wish I would have just took an extra 2 or 3 days off that way I could just Detox at home and wouldn't have to go anywhere.
Keep smiling :) and you will get through it
I suffer from a bad back and I am pretty young to be going through this. I find the days when I would love to take a pain pill for my back I take 2 Aleve and it takes the edge off. I just have to keep going and remember that the pills are no good for me and will only keep me from being happy.
I was able to stop taking my pills on a Friday and by Tuesday I felt much better. I only had to deal with 2 days at work with feeling yucky! I wish I would have just took an extra 2 or 3 days off that way I could just Detox at home and wouldn't have to go anywhere.
Keep smiling :) and you will get through it
Like you, I never liked Xanax, HATED them. They would make my chest hurt when taking them. Now I am opiate free, with the exception of Sub once a day. I found a few old X pills, and found I like how they make me feel now. I am afraid I will begin seeking them. I have a very addictive personality. I havent told my therapist this, cause they would make a HUGE deal about it. they havent showed up on my drug screens. I take only .25 a day, yesterday I took it before turning myself in on a warrant, and I slept the entire two hours I was there.
Just be careful with them. I wish I had the will power you have to quit, I always said "tomorrow" and tomorrow never came for me. I went inpatient because I knew my addiction was much bigger than me and my willpower. I am doing out patient therapy now, and it is a group setting. It is very hard for me to open up with these people because most of them are very opinionated, and we are all there for help. The setting encourages peers to judge each other. Maybe it is just me, I dont like judging people that are no differrent than I am.
Just be careful with them. I wish I had the will power you have to quit, I always said "tomorrow" and tomorrow never came for me. I went inpatient because I knew my addiction was much bigger than me and my willpower. I am doing out patient therapy now, and it is a group setting. It is very hard for me to open up with these people because most of them are very opinionated, and we are all there for help. The setting encourages peers to judge each other. Maybe it is just me, I dont like judging people that are no differrent than I am.
I found that drinking a lot of water and trying to do some kind of excercise like walking or running helped with the restlessness I had. Unfortunately, the hazy feeling you have takes a little while to subside. I still have times where I will feel very tired and it seems hard to focus but It passes. Have you started to detox yet? Can you go to a Dr. to have them prescribe something for the withdrawals?
What worked for me at night which always seemed the worst for me I would take Tylenol PM which did help just so I would sleep I only needed the first 3 to 4 days and now I sleep on my own. I had terrible sweats and cold chills no matter what I did I couldn't get comfortable. I also had Restless Leg syndrome which seemed to be the worst for me. I could deal with sweats and chills but not the legs.
I know there are a lot of postings that give some good remedies that may work for you so make sure to check. I know it is hard when you don't want people to know what you are going through. Once the worst had passed I found myself having some emotional depression. This website has helped me by just reading how others have an addiction and that I am not alone.
Brownie6
What worked for me at night which always seemed the worst for me I would take Tylenol PM which did help just so I would sleep I only needed the first 3 to 4 days and now I sleep on my own. I had terrible sweats and cold chills no matter what I did I couldn't get comfortable. I also had Restless Leg syndrome which seemed to be the worst for me. I could deal with sweats and chills but not the legs.
I know there are a lot of postings that give some good remedies that may work for you so make sure to check. I know it is hard when you don't want people to know what you are going through. Once the worst had passed I found myself having some emotional depression. This website has helped me by just reading how others have an addiction and that I am not alone.
Brownie6
Thank you so much for taking time to talk to me and offer advice. It means the world to me that there are people out there willing to be so helpful. I think this will really be a huge help being able to talk this out.
Also, do you think swimming could/would help? I have a pool at my house and normally when I get home I swim laps for about an hour. Should I put that on hold for now? Or would that be good at getting the restlessness out?
I am soooooooo glad I found this site before I tried doing this again. I really did not think that it would be that bad, or have long lasting effects like this. I just thought that after 4 days I would be back to normal.
....ugh.....I feel so stupid!
Also, do you think swimming could/would help? I have a pool at my house and normally when I get home I swim laps for about an hour. Should I put that on hold for now? Or would that be good at getting the restlessness out?
I am soooooooo glad I found this site before I tried doing this again. I really did not think that it would be that bad, or have long lasting effects like this. I just thought that after 4 days I would be back to normal.
....ugh.....I feel so stupid!
I am ready. Very ready. I am just scared that I am not going to be strong enough mentally. =/
Luckily I have some great motivation, I am going on vacation out of the country in ONE MONTH. And there is no way in hell I want to be going through the first stages of WD while I am there. So I am starting today.
I took 2 this morning on my way to work, and normally I would have already taken 2 more, but I havent, I started to feel the WD coming on so I took a 1/4 of a xanax and it seemed to make it less noticeable.
Is that ok to do? Or no? (i really dont like xanax, or the way they make me feel so im not concerned about getting hooked on them).....
Luckily I have some great motivation, I am going on vacation out of the country in ONE MONTH. And there is no way in hell I want to be going through the first stages of WD while I am there. So I am starting today.
I took 2 this morning on my way to work, and normally I would have already taken 2 more, but I havent, I started to feel the WD coming on so I took a 1/4 of a xanax and it seemed to make it less noticeable.
Is that ok to do? Or no? (i really dont like xanax, or the way they make me feel so im not concerned about getting hooked on them).....
Everyone is different. My major WD symptoms lasted approx. 5 days. Others have shorter time, still others have longer WD's. If you can get a script for clonidine, it will help immensely. Search on here for the Thomas Recipe. It will help with the WD's. It all comes down to you in the end. If you're ready to quit, you can.
Is there anything out there that will ease the "yuck" feeling? What gets me is I feel like there is a veil over my eyes and I can't function correctly. Like when I try talking to people, I get all stuttery and weird.
Should I try working out? Vitamins?
What worked best for you?
(sorry for bugging you, but none of my friends know, so i dont really have anyone to talk to about this)
Should I try working out? Vitamins?
What worked best for you?
(sorry for bugging you, but none of my friends know, so i dont really have anyone to talk to about this)
Everyone is different on how their body reacts to the withdrawals. Usually the worst is over by day 3/4 and gets better as you keep going. I have been 13 days and I still sneeze and have restless leg syndrome and sometimes headaches. Just try to stay calm during the withdrawals. I didn't taper so I went cold turkey which is very hard because it would seem so much easier to just take the pills. I found that Hot baths and showers helped at night. All you can do is look to the future and remember that it will get better and once you are free you will feel like a different person. Hang in there. The first step is to know you have a problem and you are willing to do something about it.
Good luck.
Good luck.
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