not doing so good!! help.!!

[plymouthgirl]

Hey, guys Well I did something bad and I knew it was. I was going on day 4 and not feeling bad, then I found twenty norco. Stupid me thought I can handle that. I took 5 of then on that day.Then the next day I was so mad at myself that I took 8 at once. then flushed the few I had left. Boy was I sick and threw up all night long. Well insted of saying this is day 7 I have to say this is day 2 again.Will make it this time, I know I will.Gave up all my connections so could not get know more ever. Not feeling to bad so I'm just praying that it all works out. Plymouthgirl

[dominosarah]

You can do it plymouthgirl!!!  Stay positive and fight like he!!..........sara

[plymouthgirl]

thanks

[laurel453]

hi, plymouth, how about keeping your son's paper near you during this time until its so old that you can call it an antique ? ...:) I see gizzy caring so much for you, one has to care  to be as honest as he was, yeah, sure, and he gave to u a very good advice and as you have already been told, break with yur suppliers, no more finding pills, right ?

but most of all, i think the word "myhero" is gonna be your talisman this time ...and it will give you strenght whenever you think of the meaning it has  for you now. Fill  and surround yourself with positive thoughts and acts, girl.

you can do it , good luck :)

[plymouthgirl]

You did not sound to bad. I know I relasped 4 times in the last 2 years. Thats bad. But I will do it this time.I have complete faith in me this time. I did not before. Plymouthgirl

[gizzy32]

I hope I did not sound like an *** and I know you will make it this time. I guess I was pushing you too, lol. Keep posting:)

[plymouthgirl]

Oh, I will make it this time!!! I found a paper in my son backpack today that he wrote. It was titled "My Heros" it was all about me. What we used to do last summer when I was clean.I cried and cried. That would make anybody stop. I will make it this time for me and my kids.I'm just calling that mistake a bump in the road. I have my head held high, and going to push my self to stay clean!!!! Plymouthgirl

[gizzy32]

I want to say it's ok, pick yourself back up, but you seem to keep relapsing and not making it very far. You should know by now there is not just one time, if you keep feeding your addiction like this it makes us weaker and weaker and relapses are tougher to get back up.Taking 8 pills at once like you did is dangerous. There are not many people here that relapsed as much as I did, I am talking about dozens and dozens of times all because I thought I could handle it, and did NOTHING to get better. I am glad to hear you gave up your connections. Please look into some aftercare and support, you can't do this alone. Glad your back posting now B GOOD:)

[mojorisin64]

at least you are ok now..and you sound like youre serious about stopping...the temptations to use that first week is bad...keep reading here and you will see that all of us humans have made mistakes...you are at day 2 so good for you..