addiction

[Lolarms]

I've never done anything like this before...I am not happily married and have 2 wonderful young boys (working on the marriage thing)  I have been reading responses and questions and feel like a complete addict...I know I am but I take way more meds than anyone I have read about...I take vicodin 7.5 with Soma, I don't even like the affect of eiter of those meds wihout the others...at night I would take about 6 vicodin with about 4-5 Soma...during the day probably 2-3 times a day I would take 4 vic with 3 soma, kept me going and feeling good and sleeping good...trouble is getting my hands on that much med...money is a huge problem.  I know I coul make some calls and get some but I can't afford it...my credit card is maxed out...but I want them so bad...I am on my first actual day without vicodin I took my last ones on Sunday night...and today is Tuesday (I hate feeling like this especially the diarreah) I have had some soma that I have been taking although I reallydon't feel much even when I take 4 at once...I've done this withdrawl tihng one other time in about 2 years and it was gross and I hated it...pretended I had the flu, no one knows about my addiction...but then I was able to get more without paying for them and it all started up again...so it is a financial thing for me at this point...I can't afford the addiciton, nor do I want it...I am getting my masters degree and the drugs would relax me and help me get through some tough assignments...so Ihave a year to go on my masters program and hope I can do it clean (if I can stay that way)...I'm cold turkey and hope all the yucky withdrawls go away before my family vacation scheduled for July 6th....so anyone been in my position?  I can remember when I would take 2 or 3 vicodin and hear stories of addicts takin 20 a day and couldn't believe it...and here I sit taking way more than that when I can...after the phyical part is done, if I make it, I don't know how to not want to feel it...I never really took it for pain, just for the great feeling Ihad...

[10356]

Hello and welcome to the forum.. I could have wrote this post myself.. I also was taking high quantity of Norco and added the soma as you are for the high it gave me.. soma is really bad for your liver and kidneys in this high of a dose along with the vics.. added.. this is way to much.. When I first came here I kicked off the same amount maybe a lil more of the norco as I had 2 prescriptions I could utilize.. The soma just does not work for very long and requires us to keep upping the dose tp get the same effect.. although mine was not a financial reason.. I sure can tell a difference in my thinking.. I'm clean now about 8mo. and when I look back I do not know how I accomplished anything and working on your Masters.. in my honest opinion it would make for a very dull and forgetful mind... The way to not resist taking more is determination a firm commitment and reaching out for support.. I now have stage 2 liver disease last I checked and stage 3 kidney with one kidney.. My intake did me no favors.. I'm very pleased for you that your Dreams are intact.. but if you go back all the work you have put in to your education will be for not as addiction shreds all our dreams.. I'm pleased for you that you are talking about it.. reach out for support as your future is in jeopardy.. I wish you well on your journey.. lesa

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

The soma Are not helping you right now. You may want to drop those to 3 or 4 per day while you detox from the cocktail. And you are quite lucky that your credit card maxed out before your body did.....I buried a 20 yr old friend that liked soma too much. If you are slurring and having muscles that sort of jerk (not smooth movements...) you are pretty close to a "soam coma" and a deathly stroke. The line between high and die is way too thin with that stuff.

You can address the withdrawals symtoms with a variety of OTC products.....immodium for runs...emetrol for stomach....heating pad for restless legs and abdominal cramps....drink plenty and be alert for dehydration if the runs are extreme....check out the Thomas Recipe and the Amino Acid Protocols - - listed at right hand side of page toward botton listed under Health Pages....and good luck to you!

[jackbean1]

I feel your pain. I started with the pain killers to help get me through work.Then something else would go wrong in my life and i would take more. When your high nothing bothers you.There is a great remedy called the Thomas recipe, vitamins and excersise. Try googleing it. I'm on day 9 Its tough but you have to want to stop. Its obviously affecting your life.