dxm abuse help

[cmou]

i typed this out to member of the community but im going to post it in general. anybody who might have information to help me or a similar story and wants to compare email me daswunderkind21@y a h o o . c o m... im just posting the email because its hard for me to talk about this and this is my first time really trying.
hi, my name is rob im 25 and i live in new york. despite trying not to i used last night and hadnt slept so i was researching the drug i abuse and saw your post from about a year ago and thought maybe you could help me out with information and stuff. i dont know anybody that used/uses dxm like me and you wrote that your an RN as well as a former abuser so i would love your dvice. im kinda lost at this point. i dont know what to do. i just got out of rehab for alcohol and oxycontin which i was in due to dwi's i went to rehab for those drugs because thats what technically showed up in my system (honestly not  a problem believe it or not) since dxm wouldnt. ive gone months-years on and off dxm since i was 17 going from ccc to robo liquid to mucinex. since ive been out of rehab ive been unable to stay away from mucinex, it no longer effects me in a tripping kinda way. the way i see it which is probably ****** up is that there are two versions of me and the better me is the dxm one. i feel more social, i eat better, function better, dont sleep as much, have less anxiety etc etc. im court mandated to a lot of things that arnt cool especially for somebody my age. i was ordered to move back to my parents house for a year, no license and other stuff and dxm seems to be the only drug i can do which is coincidental because its my drug of choice. i have different experiences when i take it which is usually at night. i usually take 8 60mgs. then an hour later take 4 60 mgs then an hour later take 8 60mgs and once in awhile but not always another 4-8 at some point for a daily average of 1200-1680mg. this is more than i took in my previous month-year long binges. do you have any idea what this drug does to the brain? how is it messing up my memory? my ability to learn while going back to college. will i be able to totally stop? from what i read people quit but always come back, its not physically addictive but it mind ***** you one way or another. anyway, id be very interested in talking to you and trying to figure some of this drug out seeing as how there is virtually no long term facts on it. you are the first person ive ever reached out to, nobody at rehab, court, friends, or parents knows the truth. guess i feel better telling a stranger. if you can help me or can reply id appreciate it.

[Addicted2long]

Hang in there rob hopefully someone with experience with the drug will post soon ill at least put it back on the main page for ya. Good luck and stay positive you can and will overcome this man I know you can. I quit heroin and I thought I would never be where i am but at some point we all break and want our livea back. And look at it like there's 3 yous. The one u were before drugs, the one u are on drugs, and the one wiser, more intelligent, aware, and experienced one you will be after. Trust me it will all work out and you will come back to normal if you give it your best to quit.

[texaslady68]

Hi Rob,

The only thing i know about DXM is from an episode of the show Intervention I watched.  If you go to You Tube, and type in Intervention Episodes DXM, you will see partial clips of the show.  There are also other videos about people that abuse it.  Good luck, and I hope others with more experience come along soon.

[bewitched_queen]

Hi Rob :) welcome, Im glad you came! I personally don't have any experience with dxm (my demon is opiates) but someone can help you out here ;)