euphoric posting danger

[justlikeyou]

some of you post stuff that makes me get excited about drugs, the way you describe it, the feeling etc.im sure it would be easier on many of us if we only posted stuff that was,

'benificial to recovery'


posting how good drugs are is gonna make it impossible for some?

especially when their feeling rough.

just a thought?

im not a post controller but if what you post makes me get excited@ almost 50 days clean with a solid and serious desire to live clean, im sure those stuggling with 6 days are not helped by being reminded how lovely pils make us feel?

[mom2rachie]

I agree but we are all responsible for our OWN recovery.  it took a long time for me to be able to be around anyone that was drinking but today I can go anywhere where there is drinking without obsessing over it.  
You do get to a point in your recovery where you can listen to those things or be around it even if it's necessary and not feel the urge.  You must remind yourself just how bad it got.  
I feel very strongly that we are put in situations because we need practice in them.  If you'r impatient, you will find yourself cosntantly in situations where your patience is tested.  It's part of recovery.  Check yourself if the drugs are sounding good and find that place inside you that makes you remember why you quit in the first place.
I'm not belittling what you feel, I get it but just skip those posts and be grateful you are where you are in your life.
This should be a place where people can share their feelings and if someone else is not in their recovery where they can't see the bad and still dwell on the good, well then, pray for them because chances are if they're romancing it, they'll relapse.

[Marce4]

I know what you mean about making it difficult but this will always be a part of recovery.....maybe we need to take a break from the forum or go to a meeting or email a friend when we get those cravings!  I have caved and ended up feeling worse for that 20 minute high!  If you think about what comes AFTER the euphoria, maybe that will make you stronger!  That's what I keep on focusing on, and I've realized that life is full of stresses, other people can deal with it with no drugs to numb them so why can't I? It is my, and only my decision to take that pill and no matter what anyone says or does to me, I am ultimately responsible for my actions! Not sure if this will help or not but ijt is how I feel about it.  

Peace,
Marcie

[lonote]

That also was well put. I never thought of it like that. they make you excited and it doesn't help your r ecovery. It makes a lot of sence its happened to me before talking in depth about it you start getting that uncomfortable feeling. I agree with you. I hope i never said any thing offending the way you feel.

[awakan]

justlikeyou Your right about the fact that their is nothing romantic about any of it, being so sick you can not keep food down. Getting a pos for Hep C sweating freezing bones aching. Bowels out of control not wanting to move not sleeping not wanting to see anyone,having a "being clean" is so boring feeling about life being treated like a leper except by other dope fiends. Not being able to control your emotions, wishing it would all end one way or another all the wonderful feelings that come from using..they doth su** . But some folks new in recovery and some not so new in recovery have not reached a place where they only see the negative part yet. the warm fuzzy memories are still too fresh. Go to a meeting if you feel you are in danger of re-lapse talk to your sponsor and let he or she know you are having a battle with this thing...with love a-wakan

[sprstar]

I used to get like that at NA meetings sometimes. That euphoric recall when someone gets descriptive can be hard. Just try to switch the thoughts to what the real outcome is.

[emilyanne]

I agree that it is hard at first to listen to people talk about euphoria, but it is an important part of what we discuss as a whole, here. Euphoria is what got us addicted in the first place, and it's what keeps falling back into taking them even after they've been clean for awhile, and euphoria is what we all crave when we have cravings. Our whole addictions are surrounded by euphoria...we wouldnt take the pills if they didnt make us feel so good, know what I mean? As a recovering addict, you are going to come across lots of "tests", and you just need to stay strong and remember that the euphoria last less than two hours, i'd say. the rest is torture...

[tomanypills]

i dont think hes talkin about pills