Day 5 and posting again...sorry

[ArmyWifeMomof4]

Hey all. My MIL is here helping out. I am over a lot of the physical symptoms of withdrawal but the depression is getting me. Not even full blown depression but just feeling down. I need something to do but it is super cold and snowy out and hauling 5 kids out would be too much. I wish it was nice so I could go for a walk or take them all to the park. I had a split second thought of just being able to take one pill and then of course I thought after all that hell? You would just be hitting restart. Might as well push thru and mend instead of starting all over. Just down today.

[jifmoc]

Hey, Army, NOW is the time to start meetings!!!:)

[dwhitti777]

I agree... music and a bath! Wish I could right now but at least work is keeping me busy. I hate the anxiety. We're going to do fine today though.... one day at a time!

[Cricketk92]

I agree with everyone who said to stay busy!  One day I did all the laundry, changed the beds and cleaned out the fridge just to stay busy and keep my mind off of "feelings".  The depression will ease up and you will have another good day to counteract it!  Its just a mish mosh of feelings the first 2 weeks or so!  And since we numbed them for so long even describing a feeling can be a challenge!!  Hang in there cause you are doing great!!!!!  :)

[dominosarah]

Turn on some music, take a warm bath(if you can have a minute alone!)  I cleaned alot of closets and cupboards in those early days.  Kept me up, moving and my mind off pills.  You are doing great so keep it going!!

[leahlee18]

Hi
I am tapering off Norco, however, I have been sneaking pills from my husband and I went and got more pills at the pharmacy last week.  I am really upset because I was doing good tapering.  Now I feel like I have to start all over again.  I am making this coming Thursday my last pill.  My last day at work is Thursday so i'll have some time at home to feel crappy if I need to.  I am worried about the mental part.  I don't want to feel depressed but I'm sure I will.  I just want to be able to say "ok I have gone a day with no pills, 2 days with no pills" and so on.  I haven't gone a day with no pills in who knows how long.  

[motye51]

I do agree that this time of year is kind of hard b/c the weather doesn't really cooperate and the sun doesn't shine alot.  During my detox I would go sit in the sun as much as it would come out but b/c it was January, it wasn't much.Is your MIL still coming over to help?  When I needed to get out of my head and believe me, that's all it is is your addict brain trying to get at you, I listened to music. I also found alot of really good stand up comic shows on my cable provider and watched them. A really good laugh does wonders!  
Your brain is pissed off, that's all it is....it's throwing a temper tantrum b/c you've stopped giving it what it wants!  Not to mention, your starting to have some emotions come back that have been numbed for quite a while and there probably all over the place.    How about looking up where the nearest N/A meeting is in your area and going to a meeting.....they ALWAYS help.  Don't go and spill your guts, just go and listen.....in the beginning, when I was still super super sick, I would go b/c it actually gave my brain some physical relief.  Once I felt a bit better is when I really introduced myself.....but instant relief....I got it there.

[Dozeman]

yea dont be like me I am off the methadone but so far at 3 a day on the tabs which means I went back up half a pill on the tabs and I was on day 15 at 2 half tabs but once I stopped the dones I went up half a pill so far I say but the day aint over yet