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[onthefence]

Hi, some might remember me here, i haven't used opiates since march 2012 but wasn't in a real recovery program so when i relocated to another state i started hitting the bars,  long story short, i chose to drink and drive and received a felony dui.I just finished a 180 day very intense treatment program in a mt. doc facility, it was in a modified therapeutic community, I am very grateful i was accepted as i was sentenced to 13 months prison, it was the most beneficial experience of my life , i have been abstinent since july 10 and now sober by choice for 2 days , practicing living in the present moment!i do have some insurance as i am in drug/dui court and it will help , especially to not smoke marijuana. I feel i now desire to be clean more than to use, i think this last few years was meant to be, a process to get to this point, especially all the time i was on medhelp researchin how to quit opiates, thanks to the ones that never gave up on me, i now realize how much of a self centered ***, full of criminal pride , stuck in victim stance, with power & control issues , arrogant with no humility i was, of course i still have those issues but am working hard to change one day at a time, progress not perfection....
i will be on here some as i want to help if i can, as i believe that is what recovery is all about...

[clean_in_ks]

Fresh awareness and Beginnings are WONDERFUL!

I'm happy for you and appreciate your honesty!  Glad you're back!

Keep posting...we'd love to share your recovery experience ok?

[dominosarah]

I am so happy to see you back!!!!!!

I think you finally realized you couldnt do this alone.  Your comment about your desire to be sober is more than your desire to use stood out.  It is about time!!  I knew you had it in you and i also knew you had to figure that out by yourself.  Drug court has been very beneficial in my area.  Many people have gotten and stayed sober.  Use the tools they are providing.  I am really proud of you my friend, this has been a very long journey for you.  How is your wife doing?  Stay in touch!!

[onthefence]

hi, july 10 is when i was sentenced, i have been in a dept of corrections treatment locked up until saturday, thats why i said abstinent, because i could not use or drink, now it is truly by choice , so i feel this is the beginning of my sobriety.
yes i have to go to aftercare meetings , i have 18 months of drug/dui court now.I am on parole until the remainder of the 13 mos, then 4 years probation and suspended sentence, there is no more chances next time is msp.
when my wife and i quit opiates/heroin we drank as soon as we felt over acute w/d, we lost everything and moved to oil boom area for work, continued drinking, i have been lifelong alcoholic and have had many dui's in other states over my life, it finally caught up with me.

[ThePhoenix75]

Just wanted to say welcome back.  I am sorry to hear you've had such a hard lesson but glad to hear you are on the right track.  I look forward to hearing from you.
Phoenix

[clean_in_ks]

Sorry....I hit the submit button by accident....

Anyway....being abstinent means "no mind altering substances"....so that's where I am confused with what you shared with us.

Are you being required to go to meetings or some form of addiction counseling?  

You truly do sound like you've made a lot of headway and had some important "ah ha" moments...maybe you can clarify "where you are" in the recovery process with us, huh?  Hope you'll keep posting...glad you're back

[clean_in_ks]

Welcome back!!  Thanks for sharing with us what has happened to you since you stopped opiates.  Why don't you post this in the Addiction: Sustance Abuse Forum.....rather than the Social forum?  It would help a lot of other people and possibly also give you more feedback.  Just a suggestion.
  
I followed your story above pretty good until this sentence:

"i have been abstinent since july 10 and now sober by choice for 2 days , practicing living in the present moment!"

You got off opiates, switched to alcohol, got a felony DUI, went to an intense 6 mo treatment program.  You said your sentence was 13 mos...so are you on probation and participating in drug/dui court now?  And then you said you'd been "abstinent since July 10 but only sober by choice for 2 days"??  That's where I got confused.  And you're still smoke pot but hoping drug court will "help" with that?

[ROSYouralright]

"i now realize how much of a self centered ***, full of criminal pride , stuck in victim stance, with power & control issues , arrogant with no humility i was, of course i still have those issues but am working hard to change one day at a time, progress not perfection....
i will be on here some as i want to help if i can, as i believe that is what recovery is all about"

Wow! Thats a pretty powerful realization...
So glad you found your way back!
Wow!! Thats