malpractice???

[gia1234]

Well, I have my last script and can't afford to get any more and REALLY want and know I need to stop taking this sh*t. I've heard some bad things about the long term effects of vicodin, wondering if they're all true. My doctor had me on a number of things...tramadol, somas, xanax, vicodin es, mezcline.... I'm wondering since he has never run ANY tests to check my liver/kidney function, if I have any damage. I don't have ins so can't just run to a dr at any time. Plus I'm broke as hell. Wondering if I should just go to the free clinic right before I quit and tell them about the problems I've been having. Then maybe they can run tests. And since I didn't know about long term damage, or even that I could get addicted, I'm wondering if I should try to sue my doctor. I feel like this is his fault. Instead of fixing the sources of the problems I have or referring me somewhere else, he just kept giving me pills. Anyone know anything about this?

[IBKleen]

WOW. Really? You did know that you were addicted? You didn't feel any withdrawal? Was there a time when you ran out, and felt funny? Did you ask the doctor?

I am not saying that all doctors are right..or good. But he prescribed you these meds, it is also YOUR responsibility to at least read the phamphlet that comes with the bottle. Sounds like this doctor, again--right or wrong, was trying to help you, and now you are blaming him?

Hun, if you want to get well, you will need to take some responsibility and not blame others.

Good Luck.

[avisg]

What is it that you are going to sue your doctor for ??? would you even be stopping  the meds if it were not for the fact that you were out of refills?? IBK is right the pharmacy gave you info about the drug there is plenty of info on the net about vicdion.Did you ever tell your doctor you felt like you had a problem?
avis

[Babanker07]

What IBkleen, and Avisg said.

[dyblue]

    Sure blame it on the doctor get a grip  don't you research things before you take it they come with a list of side effects.  You won't have a leg to stand on in court be accountable for yourself.  Blaming the doctor really pisses me off.   Suck it up and deal with your problem get some professional help I think you got more then a drug problem.  Don't play the blame game no one is responsible but you.  Thats part of being an adult.   Sorry but that's just the truth of it all  The truth will set you free.

[kimmiek]

Guess what im gonna say has already been said.  But how can you blame a doctor who was trying to help you relieve some pain?  Did you not keep going to the doctor for relief of your pain?  Every time you go to your doctor since you first "scored" some pain meds, you knew he was probably gonna give you more.  Isnt that why you kept going? Thats why I go to my pm doctor.  If I am physically addicted and/or mentally addicted how can I possible blame my doctor?  I get my a$$ up and put it in the car and drive it over to his office hoping for the meds so I can get my pain managed.  They are trying to help me.  We live in the information age.  I would think any one big enough to go to the doctor and get some pain meds would be big enough to be informed about anything they take.  

[traveladdict]

It was my fault I became addicted and it is my fault I stayed addicted. It is also my job to get and stay clean.

[checkmeout]

perhaps some folks here a being a bit rough on you.  i don't know... it's only natural to be angry at someone who you feel has enabled you.  i never had a scrip, but i sure was pissed at my dealer during the detox.  fact is it's not your dealer's fault.  you kept going back.  I refer to your doc as a dealer because he sounds like any other street pharmacist to me.  if you ate vikes for that long and never realized you could get addicted you're not the sharpest tool in the shed.  but i suspect that's not really the case is it?

[abadaddict525]

I understand how you feel, I felt the same way when I first realized I had an problem with the pills. I was more angry though that after I reached out for help the same DR that was giving me the pills wouldn't help me out. Ultimately I had to realize it was my decision to take the meds and abuse them. Part of recovery is accepting responsibility and it doesn't sound like you are doing that.

It is okay to be angry, but direct your anger at the real source... YOU!!

I wish you the best of luck in getting clean. Keep posting and listen to all these wonderful people giving you advice!!!

[IBKleen]

abadaddict525..that was a great post. Thank you.

[gia1234]

You guys seem a little bit too judgemental for being addicts yourself. FYI, MY DR TOLD ME I COULD NOT GET ADDICTED AS LONG AS I TOOK THEM AS HE DIRECTED. Which i did. I even took less. And yes I went to him for pain but never experienced vicodin for recreational use. Then I got my first script and it felt good. I told my dr that I liked them and everything. He just kept giving them to me so as not to have to refer me to another dr or give me the surgery i need. And yes maybe he was trying to help me relieve my pain, which he did, but I still think he is at least partially to blame.

[gia1234]

Let me guess.... you are a doctor? Your comment really hurt me and I don't appreciate it! No one is better than anyone else. I admit I have a problem, but I didn't start out this way. I'm really angry at you. Don't post comments for me anymore. "Get a grip"? What the hell is that? I need professional help? Who the hell are you to tell me? This site is supposed to be theraputic. You just made me feel like ****.

[avisg]

At this point it would probably be better to put your focus on getting healthy instant on placing  blame .This site is full of wonderful information to help you . I hope you stick around .
avis

[gia1234]

I will stick around as long as no one is judgemental. No one has the right. Do you agree? This is my first time in the site and everyones coming down on me like i'm a stupid ***** who is trying to blame her dr.

[bandnmom]

I think every1 should stop being so judgemental and remember how hard it was to admit to yourself or anyone else for that matter that you have an addiction problem. Everything comes in steps and right now she is just starting. Instead of being mean maybe congrats and we are proud of you!!

[IBKleen]

No honey. No one has the right. You are correct. We are all trying to help.

For me, if I used the fact that my doctor didn't tell me, I would have stayed in my addiction for as long as my body held out. Know what I mean?

I know it sounded harsh, and believe me, it was not meant that way. We would very much like to see you succeed, but one of the first things is to get honest. Boy, that is a tough one, but once you get past that..you can make some changes.

I hope you understand that this is from love..from EVERYONE. Please stay here and listen..and post. OK?????

Be good to yourself....

[CinCee]

Gia, IF you've never exceeded the recommended dose, then you are probably only physically dependent.  You may be a little uncomfortable for a few days, but you won't have long term problems.  

Most of us here have both physical and psychological dependence.  The mental part is actually the hardest to deal with.  The only way is brutal honesty.  Most of us have a massive aversion to honesty that we have to overcome.

You post on an addiction forum; we assume you are an addict and need to get honest.  Some people have been rough with you, but believe it or not, that's the kind of thing many addicts need to hear because a lot of start out in denial.

I don't blame you for getting upset.

Just make sure you're being honest with yourself.

[gia1234]

I am being totally honest. To you and myself. I actually knew my dr outside of his office and i trusted him. I truly believed I would never be addicted. I never exceeded the dosage, but the dosage was 6 a day! That's a lot. I am admitting I'm addicted. What else is this for? Why would anyone get on here and lie if it is only for their own use? Doesn't make sense.

[Babanker07]

Hi gia1234, I apologize if it sounds as though we're being rude, I assure you this is not our intentions, for example with me, and my addiction (40 a day lortab habit, clean 41 days now) I had much anger at the point my withdrawal hit, but I had to look at my core issues, for me it was an accumilation of a love of mine of over 3 and a half years leaving me out of the blue, my newfound distance from my Father, and my overwhelming amount of bills.  I was using to cope and forget about all of that.  I've long since learned that to start my pursuit to happiness it had to be by myself without my drug of choice.  Was taking pills fun at first, very much so, however, when using everyday I turned in to a shell of my real self, and now being able to see the other side of the hill, the grass is much greener.  All judgement asside, I would forget about pursuing your doctor, and use us, and those closest to you to help you get passed your withdrawals, please keep posting, and feel free to personal message me if you ever want to vent or to say hi:)  Take care, BA...

[CinCee]

6 what?  How many milligrams?

[gia1234]

6 vicodin 750 mg. I know it doesn't sound like much but it is to me. Thanks you guys. I won't persue my dr. I'll just not see him again.

[avisg]

we are not judging you ,let me explain something the reason i have manged to stay clean is I have taken responsibility for getting here.
it is not going to do you any good to focus your doctor just focus on your recovery.

[CinCee]

You are at a dose where a taper is totally doable.  The best way is to cut by 10 or 20% per day every 4 days or so.  If you can do it, it is almost symptom-free.

If I were you, I would try to get something for sleep.  A benzo or even Ambien (long-acting).

You can do this with a sleep aid and a taper and not get mixed up with anything else.

[dyblue]

  nobody makes you feel like **** but you., this is what I'm talking about..  I'm in withdrawl as we speak , but I'll get through I was only taking 3 codiene a day for 5 years.  You don't sound like an addict to me just someone who became dependent it happens.  Happened to me too.  Sorry you are so sensitive but I'm speaking from experience and I wish I was A doctor I'd have some dough.  Good luck sorry I'm very blunt need to work on that one, I'd make a lousy councellor too.

[gia1234]

Thanks. I don't think anyone is realizing (except bandnmom) that I have admitted to having a problem and that means I take responsibility for it. I'm getting out of this forum for a while because I Probably don't need to focus on suing my dr, but on me. I just feel bad for all the other people's addictions he feeds. Perhaps if more drs got sued, they would think twice before telling a patient and a friend that you can't get addicted as long as you take them as directed.