I REALLY HOPE THIS REACHES SOMEONE THAT THIS CAN HELP IN KNOWING THAT LIFE IS POSSIBLE AFTER OPIATE ADDICTION,THIS FORUM HAS HELPED ME SOOOO MUCH SO I REALLY HOPE THIS REACHES SOMEONE WHO NEEDS TO KNOW IT IS POSSIBLE...............
SOOOOO....Today i slept in WAY too late :) but i needed it so much!!! I am feeling so much better just about everything,i feel like i can move on with my life.Its so crazy i havent thought this good about anything to do with my future,but i am starting to look up!!! I am still taking the suboxen but i am thinking about just tapering myself off of them because i dont really think i need them anymore.The emotions are no where near as bad,i mean i am still emotional of course BUT i am able to understand now that this is normal.I am super excited i am going to my first meeting in 2days :) i know that is going to help soooo much and also i am getting into some counseling,so yea it really feels like this is going to be possible for me,it is getting better and easier everyday.I dont like that i do keep getting a little irritated about dumb stuff but luckily for me my boyfriend has been very understanding,i've talked his ear off so much that i think he realizes that this whole thing is new to me and that i am trying sooo hard so like yesterday he went and bought me an outfit kinda to show me that ya know when im not spending all his money on drugs than he can do little stuff for me like that every now and then.OHHH and another good thing well he found a car that we should be able to afford since i blew us up when i took off in july and drove our car 600miles away because all i cared about was getting drugs easier,anyways though no dwelling on the past,another great thing is that we found a house that is close by his grandma's soooo she can still babysit for us when i do get a job,we just have to wait for the guy to finish the flooring and stuff to the house and then we can move in,and he isnt even charging us a deposit,so that is sooo great....so yea like i said everything is looking up so i just gotta tell myself when i get down to remember as long as i stay on the right track and make my recovery number one than everything else will continue to get better not only for me but for my family!!!!!!!!!