You can't go back now. But, you can forgive yourself and move on and work on creating a brighter future for you and your family.
I am glad to hear that you are a christian lady as God holds all of the power to truly heal this disease. Pray. Pray a lot. I do everyday. And until i was willing to seek help and turn this over to Heavely Father i had never seen 69 days clean.
I would suggest telling your husband or someone close to you that you trust. Husband would be best. This is a lot of weight to carry on your own. You need support.
And please remember what i said about forgiving yourself. This is especially important as addiction feeds off of guilt. So ask God for forgivness, forgive yourself, change your behaviors and with that you will have earned the right to move on to a happier, healthy life.
All the best.
Jacky
Avis is right. In most states, in fact, the doctors office is notified every time you fill a prescription for percocet. That is why i said, they may still be investigating at this point. This is all the more reason to get into aftercare as she said.
Jacky
you need to contact kajama and talk with her shes awesome and shes been through alot of what your talking about.
I really appreciate everyones support and help! My Dr does not take very good notes and I have just called and asked for percs and they leave the script at the desk for me! I don't know how to break this to my husband, I have already in the past done so many things to hurt him
i really doubt they will flag you... esp since they just wrote you a new script... the doctor is giving you percs ongoing and the pharmacy wont flag you.. since this doctor is giving you the percs there's no reason for them to flag you... you can just count your "blessings" cuz you didnt get caught this time... if i were you tho i wouldnt try that again... count your self lucky.. and move on and stop worrying about it... i did that once and i was so nervous too... the doctor gave me a script signed and mostly filled out the pharmacy wouldnt take it cuz the millagrams werent on it so i looked at the replacement script he gave me and put the mg on the "bad" script myself and a few weeks later i filled it... it wasnt worth all the nerves so ill never do that again... and you prob wont either.. good luck.. :)
nuredshuz, I understand about the flagging, I am worried they will send the slip back to the dr and the nurse will know its not her handwriting. Also when I was there she wrote me a script for 30 and on this one I put 60. She has wrote them for me for 60 one time(the dr herself, I picked it up and didnt see her)