How long do you feel like this?

[starfish1963]

I asked in the previous post and I've been reading what others say, I don't think I could go on for 28 days or more, that would kill me.  I thought I felt better when I first woke up but now Im getting the chills again.  Dang this bites but Im determined and I won't go back.  Please be honest, I'd rather know the truth.

[starfish1963]

The last hour or so I felt half way myself, Im starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel :)  That could change any miniute now but hey it's a start.

[starfish1963]

My anxiety was worst yesterday than it is today for some reason I don't know why but that could probably change any miniute now lol and I know it's not funny but it beats crying at this point.  

[starfish1963]

I'm working in my house, I'm self employeed Thank God!  My chest is killing me but I do physical work so I guess that is to be expected.  I have the runs still, my head hurts bad (never had headaches before) and the muscle on the side of my arm was twitching earlier, what the heck is that about?  I took 2 corriceden (sp?) and it does seem to help some.  I know I can beat this (I must be having a good moment) but it sure does bite really really bad, have I said that before ;)

[novics]

The first 9 days were the worst and much better every day after that with the physical part. By the way the Sun and the heat really bothered me during the worst of it so try and avoid as much as possible but I did work every day of my withdrawals because I had to.

[Mandapanda17]

withdrawal can be awful. I'm going into day 11. finally got to the gym yesterday and walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I think it really helped me sleep, with the melatonin and a small (.5mg) dose of xanax, a bike ride is definitely in order! :) I had to work on days 4,5,6, if I wouldn't of, I think those days would've been worse for me honestly. I believe I flushed the rest of my pills...on day 4? when I woke up in the morning. I'm a pretty strong person myself, but you never know when your body feels like its going into shock almost. I hope you feel better soon, it will get better. hows your anxiety? I'm having the biggest problems with that, and then another night of the runs last night. on day 10?!?! what?!?! LOL, it ***** but I guess could still be normal. :) ttys and stay strong!!!

[starfish1963]

Not a problem, I do what I say I will do.  Its just to proove to myself I can do it.
Did I say this bites bad ;) lol

[cathy5841]

i tried the wean thing once...not for me...i went c/t off 340 mgs a day of oxy.  and i was a snorter...i know what ya mean i am strong too.  it just scares me when someone has them around..we all have our weak moments and i am afraid if they were here i wouldnt have 7.5 months behind me.  get rid of them soon..okay...it will make me feel better...lol

[starfish1963]

I know it's bad to have them around.  I am the one of the strongest people you could ever want to meet honestly.  When I look at them I could puke.  I will get rid of them I promise.  I have no desire to take the evil things honestly if I did I would be open about it.  I have made up my mind and I will do this I just want to feel better and I didnt come this far to go back.  I didn't even ween myself down like my friends told me to I went cold turkey.  No more roxy's for me I promise!

[cathy5841]

OMG..get rid of theose roxies.  they have to go.  addiction will trick you into using one day...please please get rid of them....you dont need them hangin out at your house.  

[starfish1963]

I just counted my roxys 10 and 1/2 left and the make me sick looking at them.  I can do this but it bites bad :(

[cathy5841]

glad it helped.  i have almost 8 months clean from a nasty oxy habit and on monday i will have 7 years off coke....a very bad coke habit.....if i can do this you can so do this....the key is positive attitude, desire to be clean and determination.  and exercise really helps out to.  stick with us, we are all beating this together...

[starfish1963]

I'm back, it about killed me 90 plus degrees outside but I did it and I do feel better.
Did I say this is terrible ;)
I have the utmost respect for all and any that have beat this.  Knowing I'm not alone has helped tremedously.  Thanks :)

[starfish1963]

I know it's illegal to peddle your butt on the streets ;) but here I go...at least I haven't lost my humor over all of this which is a good thing lol

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Actually, it won't kill you. Having said that - I will always advocate this type of business be conducted around close friends - you might just be able to talk a stranger into shooting you! You were doing roxies? Different types of narc's take different amounts of time.....and everyones body is different also. And the length of historical use enters the equation. Most people tend to start looking up by days 5-9 ..... it starts to get gradually better and just keeps improving. Check out the right hand side of page - under health discussions. Read the PAWS information. Also read the Amino Acid Protocol if you havent. We use up a lot of things our bodies need during our use. Try and replace those things by supplement and diet. If you are getting periods of OK and are waking up feeling moderately good, you are really close to getting where you wish to be. Good luck to you.

[cathy5841]

great! positive thinkgin is the best way to go.  and yes take that bike ride....exercise is the very best thing you can do right now.  it helps the brain to produce endorphins on its own.  the drugs have been supplying them up till now.  you have to be the supplier now.  get peddling.

[starfish1963]

A big part of my problem is I don't cry, I hold everything in and I don't want my husband to see me cry.  I've held back alot of tears all these years and I would love to get some out

[starfish1963]

This is horrible, no one should have to feel like this but I guess it's the price you have to pay and I know in the long run it will be worth it.  I won't go back no matter how bad I feel and if I feel bad than it will help me to never want to feel this way again that's for sure.  

[starfish1963]

I'm trying I honestly am.  I think a bike ride is in order, it does help. thanks

[cathy5841]

there really is no way to put a time frame on it.  everybody is different.  there are things to consider like how long and how much you abused.  i have a journal entry on time that mite help you.  remember we did not become addicted over nite and we wont get well over nite.  it takes time and determination.  you are doing great...keep on keepin on and you will soon have good days.  you can do this.