I did it!!!!

[northernstar30]

Ok, I'm not to good at typing my thoughts out, but here it goes.  My son has been seeing a phyc doc for about 8 months.  He's a great guy and the last couple times we've been there for my son, I've talked to him about me some.  Well today I came clean about my addiction.  He wasn't surprised.  He said he knew something was going on and was waiting for ME to be ready to talk to him.  OMG, I feel so much better.  He's going to help me.  First he said that I'm tapering way to fast.  I was taking 15, 50mg trams for over a year.  I've only had 6 in 3 days.  He doesn't know a lot about trams so he's going to do his homework and see me on Monday morning.  I'm going to go to a N/A meeting on Saturday.  I want to thank all of you who have been reading and responding to my post for the last couple of days.  It helped me find the strength to talk to him.  I know I can do this.  I READY to do this.  

[buttercups]

I can sense your conviction to stopping. That's the biggest battle right there. The first 3 days are no picnic, I won't lie, but the rewards that come soon after are indescribable! It felt to me almost like a 'rebirth' of sorts. I started noticing the smell of the outdoors again, fresh cut grass, crisp breezes. The little things I seemed to forget about when I was on pain meds all slowly started coming back to me.

Congratulations on making the decision to get your life back! This forum is awesome for advice, so anytime the cravings come on you, you'll always find support in here :)

[northernstar30]

I asked him what he thought about being addicted to trams and he said he does believe it is.  He doesn't know a lot about so he's going to study up on it.  Right now the plan is to taper slowly.  Xanax .5 XR if i need it for anxiety.  He also gave me 50mg seroquel for sleep.  I hate meds that make me tired so I don't believe I will start abusing those.  Weekly counsaling (can't spell) and N/A meetings.  I feel very good about this.  This guy is a god send for my kids.  I have a special needs son and my oldest (14) is now seeing him too.  He doesn't push meds on kids, which is great.  I haven't felt so impowered to stop.  I told him about this forum and he says to keep typing away.  He says it won't be an over night cure, which I know.  But I'm so f***ing ready to start.  

[NautyOne]

My concern is that from what I have heard is that doc's don't think this drug is addictive......so, that scares me a little in what his decision or plan might be.........

[avisg]

There is a taper schedule on my profile .....or my suggestion would be to  go down one pill every 4 to 7 days this will help your body adjust back .
This way you should have minimal withdrawals until you get down to like 4 pills a day ..Good luck if you need any help let me know.
avis

[ilikevics]

Congrats!  You will make it.  It is wonderful that you found the courage to open up to someone, especially someone in the medical field that will be able to help you get through this as easily as possible..  It can be done.  YOU can do it.  Hang tough.

[mcdkar]

Congratulations!!!! I know it takes alot of courage to fess up about something that you have kept hidden - but like any problem like this - acknowleging that you have a problem is the first step..at least thats what they say. From the tone of your e-mail you sound relieved to have come out about your problem. Its good that this physician is non-judgmental and will help you wean off of the medication properly. Again, pat yourself on the back I think you have taken the first yet hardest step toward helping yourself!!