Vicodin Withdrawl

[ladydee306]

I am so scared of withdrawal.  let me start by saying that.  Everyone has a story like mine - it started with a half of pill left over my c-section...I liked it.  I called the dr. to see if she could perscribe some to manange my endometriosis - I remember, 3 - one each day for the first 3 days of my period.  fine.  but not fine!  Here I am 5 years later - I go through about 200 pills a month - so what is what about 6-8 pills a days of the 10/325.  I spend roughly $650 a month on these pills that I hate.  I hate them, I hate them, I hate them.  It's time to stop.  I have 20 left.  I want to wean myself, but am not sure if I should do that or go cold turkey.  I have the weekend and maybe I can call in to work on Monday, but after that I am going to have go to work - be a single mom and make life work for me.  I am scared.  I am deathly afraid of the withdrawal - the sleepless nights, the back pain, the inability to concentrate, the whole thing.  But God, how I want this monkey off my back. I have a beautiful 6 year old little girl - doesn't she deserve a mommy that is not popping pills.  It has been at least 3 years since I have started my day without popping a pill.  I just want it to end - to go away.  I want to be able to detox, but I don't know how.  I have some ideas from a lot of websites - Valarian root, kava kava, keep a journal, motrin, tylenol pm, a good book for nights when i can't sleep, imodium if needed....but what do i do with my mind all day?  is it possible to get through this while going to work and being a mother....please help, any advice would be appreciated.  I know this is my fault, but please - I need some help.  I am 33 years old and all i think about are rationing my pills, getting some more, I want to be normal again - is that even possible?

[readynow30]

i am also working while doing this.  going from 6-8 10mg whatever i can get to now today, only one...(half in AM, half in PM)
tried this before, and the worst part of WD for me is the restlessness, esp at work.  the l-tyrosine and b-6 in the AM (in place of one or two pills as usual to get me out of bed and functioning) DID help.  I had energy like i had taken my normal 1-2.  tomorrow it's going to be just a half for me.  
BUT i have my appt this week for refil and i was weaning just to get me thru til then....but now i'm thinking, don't go!  don't get more!  do it,  you can do it....but my mind, that dirty thing, is telling me GO!  ugh....

[readynow30]

ok sorry, got it!  
well i am in day 2 of "weaning"
hurtininnc, i just started thomas recipie, you need to try...it's helping tremendously.  
also, MUSIC is helping me soo much

[readynow30]

testing...just joined...can't figure out how to post to thread...

[MattTheAttorney]

You can do this.  I am in day four right now. I was taking between 80-160 mg of oxy a day.  hurtininnc and I stopped on the same day.  The first few days are going to be rough, but use teh Thomas recipe it will help.  You said you had access to a pool. if that pool has a jacuzzi use it.  I cannot tell you how much it helped me.  You can get your life back, you just have to take the first step.  Most importantly, keep posting it will help keep you focused and give you an amazing amount of encouragement.  Good luck.  Matt

[NorcBgone]

Hang in there - I'm in the same boat as we speak. I can't miss work either, I took my last dose this morning in hopes that a long weekend would get me thru the worst of it. I know I'll still be dragging on Monday, but hopefully not as bad. I've been taking Norco for the past 3 years as well, and it IS time to stop. It consumes me as well to the point that it has become a priority over anything else in my life. Its time to take control again, and if a week of pain is how we get there than I am willing to take the plunge.

Someone on here with more time will be able to give you some remedies that will give you some relief. The people on here are helpful and wonderful! Best of luck to you and keep posting.

[ladydee306]

Thank you for the support and encouraging words.  Seriously, today I decided to stop and I have not stopped thinking about it all day - the fear has consumed me.  All awhile I am still taking them.  I cannot believe the mental addiction - I can't even stop thinking about the idea of "stop take them" - wow.  okay - so tomorrow might be my best first day to stop since I will then have sat and sun to be terribly sick.  I can call in on Monday but this is a new job and I have only been here 6 weeks.  I don't think I could take tuesday off too.  I mean, who gets sick in the summer - so I am scared and embarrassed - I don't think they will fire me, but it's really bad timing.  Either way, I have to do it.  First of all, I only have 20 left and I am NOT making anymore crazy emergency room visits, begging a strange doctor on the phone or pleading with my dealer to FIND me some more.  Who is this person I have become?  8 years active duty in the army.  I have a graduate degree.  I am a mother.  I am a good person - yet I don't think I can funtion a minute without these pills.  My problem began with trying to combat being tired all the time and unhappy - I mean the pills give you a eeuphoric high that nothing else....but atlas, it is time.  I remember once I ran out and I went to work on nothing, I was shaking, pacing, my back hurt, my legs, and I could not sleep - it was horrible.  But I guess you just have to suffer through it - Would you advise trying to wean myself or just stopping cold turkey.  honestly, i think I take 6-8 pills a day - everyday for that last year...but I have been taking them at least 4 a day for the last 3 years and at least one a day for the last 5 years!  How long will it hurt?  how long will I not be able to concentrate?  what is the best remedy?  should I swim - I have access to a pool?  Should I say I have the flu?  do people get the flu in the summer?  I am scared - I am really really scared.  i know it is going to be hard...but life clean has to be better then this - I live and breathe these pills - how many do I have?  when will i get more?  spending money my daughter and I need on something I swallow up in no time.  adn the more i get the more I take.  It has to stop.  am i strong enough?  has anyone done this while working?  any advice is appreciated.....

[hurtininnc]

hi and welcome you have come to the right place for advice there are lots of people with stories just like yours im one of them im in day 3 of detox right now and it stinks but i will tell you from previous experience it will get better you can do it you just have to put your mind to it the first wek is the worst after that it gets better just follow the advice of people on here and you will get through it takes time set yourself up so days 2,3,4 are your off days those tend to be the worst for most just hang in there keep posting and ask questions people will be here for you