Thank you for the words of encouragement I will so this day 5 almost over
its funny how we remember things our parents did so much.........if they said something once or twice when we were little it seems over and over again....best not to drink anywhere near the kids....things are often said that you can't take back...............good luck sam.....and i b your right ....alpacas are so cool...........doggies are fine.....billy
I don't know what I would do without her. I need to keep pace and stay on the path.your right though the 5 year old does sponge everything up. In recovery I need to learn how to be patient it's not fair to the child.
U'd be suprised @ what a 5 year child knows!they are like sponges.....soaking up all in the home!U r so fortunate to have a great supportive wife!U have a lot of good to direct ur recovery towards!
Wow 29 years I hope one day I will say that..I have one child 5 who doesn't understand yet so I really don't want him to grow up this way. Married still I can't believe all the garbage I've put her through.. 16 years she is supportive and knows greatly of my lack of responsibilities while drinking..I have a great wife
I completely understand the God dilemma.I've been sober/clean now for 29 years!I was very active in AA/NA for 9 years.....and i found the power of the group helping each other to be my main source of power!I'm not completely sure if there is a God.....I hope so......Joan Osbornes song What if God was One of Us describes my sentiments on this:)Well its good to know u've taken the step of going to a counselor....but hour by hour as the day goes by make the committment to urself to not drink!i like one hour at a time!How many children do u have?ages?whats their take on the drinking?and ur wife?how long married?is she supportive w/limits?
My vacation was the trigger each time I went a year.i am comfortable with aa knowing that I'm not alone my sponsor was a temporary. I just couldn't get past the religious push....don't get me wrong i do believe in God .last sunday i decided that enough was enough i contacted my work and told them i needed help..went to a evaluator yesterday and my work will now test me as long as I am employed. I will need to goto a councilor twice a week. I hope this works ... Knowing that No Job=No House=No Family=No Life.
U obviously were working a program to ACHIEVE a years sobriety!Somewhere along the line u got derailed.....did u like ur sponsor?is he still in contact w/u?Ur sister needs to find her OWN sponsor!No sense in trying to make sense w/her when she is loaded!Ur not being self centered....why not go back to AA?
Yes I relapsed a year into the journey and went could not get past 4 th. I had a sponsor and also tried other places I took what I could out of it was to political .i have another issue not that I am on day 5 my sister who is also an alcoholic wants to get sober. The problem is she is constantly calling me looking for me to tell her what to do... I can't even get my head straight....she calls me loaded and want me to goto aa with her. I don't know what to do... This is affecting my journey, I told her that I couldn't be her Sponsor. I don't want to sound self centered.
Sam-ever go to AA?any past attempts @ counseling?billy-beautiful sensitive animals the llamas......how do the dogs like them?
i have always had anxiety....thats just me.....in society everyone if wired differently...that has to be.....maybe its good to have some anxiety.....maybe you watch out for things that others might not might miss.....i have 3 alpacas....all the same age...all three we brought up from very young.....but each one is different....one...nothing seems to bother him very tame.....one pretty tame and one that is always on the watch out..nice but not so tame.......they all take their natural places in their society....if not their species could never had made it....with us...the folks with natural anxiety are more looking out...keeping the folks without so much anxiety on check...so us humans can move forward........i always look at the animals for answers.......makes it easier to see ourselves and understand who we are........so next time you get anxiety keep in mind its why we're here!!!!!.............billy.........btw....we had 3 expert snowmobilers go right into open water in maine the other day....i wish one had had enough anxiety to keep the others in check...........
I have been drinking for 20 years last 10 binge drinking the problem is when I start to think that I can go out for 1-2 i wind up drinking for 14 hours. I hate feeling guilty and tired of having no energy.i am married with child to put them through this is unfair.
Please tell more @ how alcohol is affecting u and ur family life!How long have u been drinking for?How much on a daily basis?any mixing of drugs?
I need help I don't want to loose my family,I am tired of living this way.alcohol is the root of all my problems.
Well put dear.....i couldn't agree more!:)thx for posting.....hope to c more from u here!
I recommend finding a homegroup that you like well enough to go back to at least once a week in whatever support program you choose. A homegroup can be a meeting where you add your name to a contact list for others in need of support and fellowship to call, where you take a service position and vote in business meetings, or simply a place that you return to often. It can be difficult to return when you feel like an outsider, but eventually people begin to recognize you and get to know you, and you them. I find that I'm most comfortable around the people in my homegroup when I'm attending that meeting three or four times a week. Once you've become comfortable with this group of people, fears will begin to ease in other parts of your life.
If you can share in your homegroup about your social phobia and isolation and anxiety, I can assure you that many people in the group will be able to identify with what you're experiencing. Those were also some of the reasons that I drank. I still experience those feelings, but they are no longer my baseline condition. In AA, I've found that working the twelve steps, slowly and in order, with a sponsor, is helping me to overcome my anxiety and isolation. I would pick the most helpful steps, but every one is important for growth and change. If you're nervous about finding a sponsor, ask the secretary for help in finding one, or request help finding one during a share. I also get outside help in the form of cognitive behavioral therapy, EMDR therapy for cPTSD, and acupuncture and nutritional counseling. Whatever you choose to do, keep an open mind and stick with the winners (meaning do what the people who have the recovery you want are doing). Good luck!
AA/NA SOS Rational Recovery......they all helped me......i took what i could use from all of them!We all need sober/clean ppl in our lives to help us remain that way......and check us when we begin to go left of center!:)
So glad u found a secular alternative to AA!there are many roads to recovery and many good secular alternatives out there if but ppl would seek them!Thank U for posting....hope to see more here from u!AA does say for agnostics...and NA as well......"there is no power greater than that of another alcoholic or addict helping one another!"!!!
I have some hesitance with AA, esp. Step 2 of AA. I feel sooo claustrophobic in an AA meeting, and almost a pariah for my lack of belief in a step 2 power. I discovered a secular Alternative that seems to hold no grudges against AA but is supportive of my sobriety. 25 years of junk then 3+ years clean, it must be helping me somewhat! But I digress, as I still suffer anxiety that seems past-alcohol related.
Hello Jbl, Congrats for being sober for 3 1/2 years! That's fantastic!
I could better add my $.02 worth much better if I knew: Are you doing this on your own or are you in an aftercare program?
Alcoholism is a disease not a payback. One way or the other, in general, I think it's standard to feel exactly like you describe, to a degree, if you drank enough for you to want/need to stop drinking completely.
As for my story: I had been sober for many years, in AA, and then drank (and drugged) again for almost 2 years. I again sobered up just shy of 90 days ago, and had the exact feelings like you describe when I first got sober. I felt low-down and below everyone else because I went back out big time. But then I went back to my aftercare meetings, got a big welcome back from everyone, and the more I got with others who are in recovery the better I seemed to feel. Then I missed many of my meetings during the holidays and those feelings partially came back again. I think Its par for the course for a newly sober person to be on the edge like I am. I isolate when I drink, cutting off everyone and everything I love. I only take comfort in my drugs and alcohol. I drink, think and stink. And I'm retired with plenty of time to do so.
You said the word "change" Jbl. You couldn't be more right. We do need to change to get better. I personally couldn't remain sober by just putting the plug in the jug. I drank because I'm a full blown alcoholic. It's a 3-fold disease; physically, mentally, and spiritually. I must treat my ailment, all three parts of it, in order to change. My aftercare program is all about change. If I don't change, nothing changes, including all the ugly symptoms of my disease of alcoholism. So I go to work on myself the best I can.
I hope I answered at least something of what you wanted to know or hear.
God bless, Robert