Can you relate?

[augustrose2015]

I need to quit alcohol for good but it's just such a struggle. I feel so proud of myself when I don't drink. I feel the energy, I am a better Mom, I feel productive. It feels like a glimpse of what I used to be 10 years ago when I drank only very little or when I was very young not drinking at all and was able to get excited about little things in life. I get so determined and it feels easy for a couple of weeks. I feel like I can go forever without a glass of wine. Then I have one and the whole world just falls apart. I feel guilty but the wine kicks in and I'm happy, for a moment. Next day I feel terribly sick because of the repeating pattern of binges. My husband tells not to be so hard on myself that it's ok but I know it's hurting me badly at this point, physically and emotionally. Been drinking 5-8 glasses of wine daily for years. I don't think it's ok to even have that one night every other 2-3 weeks with wine. I beg for strength. I don't crave the taste but I do crave the effect sometimes. It is just not worth it. The price has become too much. It takes me up to a week to get back to somewhat normal after one evening with wine. The aftermath is horrible. I am going to try my hardest again. Can anyone relate?
Thank you for listening..

[bignige2]

Thanks August Rose and Night Hawk. If we all support each other and be honest with each other we will get through. At the weekend I went to a relative's 50th wedding party. Didn't touch a drop, danced (without any alcohol fuelling the decision!) with my two left feet and woke next day feeling great - and nobody telling me I had made a fool of myself - and being able to remember the whole evening!! It can be done.

[augustrose2015]

Bignige, you just put everything into perspective. You hang in there and take care of your loved ones. I'll do the same. And no matter how much it would be tempting to take the edge of by a drink or whatever else let's stay sober. That's the only way we can take care of others, when we take care of ourselves. :-)

[augustrose2015]

Liz, that's amazing! 27lb!! I've been pretty skinny my whole life so I'm not worried too much about putting on weight but cutting out the junk food is definitely a challenge now. Going strong though:-) Sending you love and hugs.

[bignige2]

August rose u r an inspiration too and I will not succumb. I have a special needs son and a partner with stage 4 cancer both of whom rely on me.

[augustrose2015]

You inspire me too. Everything you're doing with exercising and staying away from drinking. Please don't spoil it

[augustrose2015]

Just think how horrible you'd feel the morning after, everything you've done the past 2 months wasted because it wouldn't just be one drink, it never ever is.
It's not worth the little fake high to throw away what you've accomplished. Hang in there