Struggling tonight

[Purbeckgirl]

I am struggling tonight without a drink. My tracker shows 0 days but I was ok last night. Went through day fine, usually have no problem with this, but fell asleep late afternoon and wished I had a drink, I am not in any danger because hubby has gone on a night out and taken credit cards/money. 6.40pm in Britain.

[ibizan]

vegetable or flower garden or both?

[dominosarah]

You will continue to keep getting more energy too......Will be waiting to see the pics!!!

Congrats on another day sober!!!!!!!!!                  sara

[Purbeckgirl]

Thanks ibizan

At the moment we are happily gardening together, I feel I have more energy to enjoy this. Will send pics when it is done!

[ibizan]

See?So much to enjoy sober.......i tell ppl this...and it is so true as u know....the short amount of time u will spend getting your drink buzz will pale in compariosn to the LARGER amount of time u will spend regretting washing away what sobriety u have acheived thus far!It is wise to have a healthy fear of alcohol......and to think of the consequences absent of the so called immediate gratification it might...or might not bring u!:)

[Purbeckgirl]

Thanks Ray!

We have planned not to drink tonight, I may watch South Africa game with him, we have been there, loved the place.

[rod44]

When I was in rehab it was suggested that I should get rid of ATM cards and only carry small amounts of cash. I often in early sobriety got cravings, went to get money from the bank, before I would get to the bank the craving would have passed.

Stick to your plan, if you dont want to drink he needs to respect your wishes.


Ray

[Purbeckgirl]

My husband has done a run off night shifts with all money with him, I don't mind this.

Tonight he is home. If I asked him for a drink he would buy me one and buy himself one although he is diabetic. Obviously it isn't just one. It would be easy to drink but I want to press on with what I am trying to achieve. He will not drink if I don't. I keep seeing my neighbours lovely though they are outside with drinks, yesterday I got through it with a quick calculation on money. I don't know what they spend on drink but going from lunchtime on must be quite a bit. I worked our about £50.00 a week (hubby and I think 80 dollars but please don't quote us!). There is quite a lot a could spend on that, almost one weeks groceries for 2, 2 horse rides, clothes. Nicky
I had cravings last night but Campral helped.

Going for a sober evening. He will be able to look after puppy whilst watching football and I will be able to keep myself occupied on facebook catching up with friends, don't get the chance often, puppy tries to pull wires!

[rod44]

Good on you for taking the steps you have taken on greeting help with your problem, things do get better in time.

Good advice

Well done

Ray

[baylin]

I am also a binge drinker and have also been a daily drinker for almost 15 years now, i have done over 6 detoxes and kidded myself over the years that I have control over my drtinking and was able to just have a beer once a week, that went great, but then i hit a crappy day and it all came a tumble, my one beer become a all nighter and the consequences was having my child took and a week in a mental institute.  Thankfully I have my child back and I am receiving treatment through my local COMMUNITY ALCOHOL TEAM, (Google it), find one in your area, and I promise you will be on the right road for a good recovery, they deal with all aspects of alcoholism, whether it is everday drinking to occasional binges.  They have great groups and great help to offer.  Trust me, you do need help, and dont kid yourself that one drink is ok, thats the drink telling you that, alcohol has a habit of becoming your best friend, then it becomes your worst enemy once it has you hooked, I have lost so much, 2 kids, a marriage, my home and almost my life, take control of the drink before it takes control of you x

[rod44]

we get stronger with each passing day IF we do the right things.Stay away from one drink for one day, get a meeting and remember that cravings do pass....

I wont comment on the football as we got hammered by the all blacks in rugby today lol...

Ray

[dominosarah]

I am really proud of you!!!!  Way to go on one more day sober!!!!            sara

[Purbeckgirl]

Have just clocked up another sober evening without struggling this time, watched the England/American Football game got a bit bored but hey another evening, thanks for your support. The ride over the countryside was wonderful.

[dominosarah]

Enjoy the countryside~~~~~~

[Purbeckgirl]

Well, up another morning non-hungover, last night wasn't to bad at all. To-day I have a horse ride. Over the British Countryside feeling great!

[dominosarah]

Way to go on staying sober tonight!!!   Google meetings in your area.        sara

[Purbeckgirl]

Not drinking tonight and not doing to bad. I would love to find a woman's AA meeting and hope to do so next week, thanks for thinking of me.

[victoria61]

Stopping by to see how your feeling today? Did you manage to find a women's AA meeting in your area? It would be a good idea to go to a meeting and get yourself a sponsor. They will help you throughout your recovery, and can be called at any time if you are struggling and need to talk. They have been where we are, and have many years clean time.
Well done for not drinking last night!
Victoria ~

[Purbeckgirl]

I think it would be a good idea to get rid of the wine in the house, it would be like giving up smoking with a pack of ciggies in front of you, never mind what anyone else thinks, you must put yourself first, I now have a lovely bunch of non-drinking friends whom know of my problems.

[Purbeckgirl]

I just posted to you! My daughter lives near the Swan Valley red wine region in Perth, omg that stuff! My daughter removed all of it from her bungalow before my last visit!

[Honeyb33]

G'day :)  Glad to hear you made it through.  I'm about to go to my first AA meeting in 10 minutes.  It's Friday night here.  I had another powerfully intense day at school and am longing for that red wine on my kitchen bench.
I agree about the cups of tea.  It's a good way to reward yourself.  So, I'll be getting gallons of prizes tonight.
Take Care.
Honey

[Purbeckgirl]

Thanks everyone!

Morning in Britain up without hangover Yay!

ibizan: Would love a women's group and believe there is one in the area, will phone AA.

[dominosarah]

How are you doing now?  I hope these feelings have passed.  I am really glad you posted.  I am just stopping in now so thought i would send you some strength your way~~~~You are in control of you now, not your addiction.  Stay strong          sara

[ibizan]

is there a meeting close to you?do you have phone numbers for any of the women there with good recovery that u can talk too?i did so many meetings in my first two years...i could go in2 one with a head full of negativity and wanting to drink/use,feeling bored and leave minus those thoughts and so grateful the next morning to wake up and recall what i did the nite b4!

[Purbeckgirl]

Thanks narla

I had the 'uncomforable' feeling without a drink tonight but got through it, I had lots of cups of tea,
Brits love it!