I quit drinking and doing cocaine 3 weeks ago. I have been drinking since i was 14, im 34...and a daily dinker since i was about 20...i was heavy in the rave scene for about 10yrs, so ive done alot of drugs...Cocaine was the one that hooked me at about 21. It comes in and out of my life, but for about the past 5yrs its been at least once or twice a week....i realize Im a mess. 3 weeks later, physically, Im completly drained alllll the time. I cant even find the energy to take my dogs for a walk. all my joints ache like i have full body arthritis, and I had to go get meds for a broncial infection...I feel like my whole immune system is crapping out on me! Is any of this fr quitting everything so abruptly? Mentally, im total chaos! I have up moods that swing me into action and i get alot done, followed by outbursts and uncontrolable crying that can last for hours! I never thought i had that many tears in me. Im soo stressed out i can actually feeeel the stress..i look at my arms sometimes like its gonna be something I can see lol...i know your gonna say get to a doc and i am....I went last w.e. and was pushed thru in under 2minutes, and sat on a bench outside crying for 20min after. I have another appt set up for this w.e. with someone else.I cant tell if these are side effects, or I have underlying issues that i have been self medicating for years.....Im not gonna use again, but I cant function like this!
Keep the faith...take one day at a time, and celebrate each clean day as a victory.
:)