I know some ppl who have read my previous post will laugh at me if they read this. I've been told REPEATEDLY that I have extremely low risk contract HIV or even no risk. Yesterday,I made up my mind to go for a test, but when I put on cloth decided to go, my body can't help shaking,I thought about death,my mother called me why don't come home,I use to think her an old nag, but this time I wish she just by my side keep nagging,hang on the phone,I really wanna cry,but how can I tell her what I'm worrying about?
My two exposure maybe ridiculous for you guys,esp first one: I got ear hurt by clipper in barber. long time ago. only when I read the report it may contract disease. Second exposure was perform cunnilingus on a girl whose HIV status remain unknown.
I'm a coward, I admit.But I seriously need you guys help? How can I get over this fear?