I have been taking xanax for 20 yrs.(Yeah, I'm still alive) I take 2 mg. a day, usually late in the afternoon or evening. I suffer from depression as well and am on Paxil. Almost everone in my family has depression problems. I started out with .25 mg. 20 yrs. ago. I am also recovering alcohlic. Thank God Recovered! I know I have short term memory loss, I used to have the best memory!! Every once in a while, I will have rapid eyelid movement or my lips will quiver. I believe this is related to the long term Xanax use. I am also worried about dementia. My mother has suffered from dementia/alzheimers for years. What is the outlook for me? Sometimes I just don't think I can go on. Some days are worse than others. Am not married, needless to say, and have no siblings and have a son who has an addiction problem as well. He has been in and out of jail so many times I have lost count. I could go on and on. Please, if anyone os thinking about taking Xanax, don't!!!!!!!!!!