Yes I am in counseling. The Er also got me in to my therapist today! I just wish I didn't feel so weird & constantly think something's wrong with me....
My original experience with anxiety came from concerns about my heart health. I too went to the ER multiple times only to find out that I was okay physically. I think that many of us here share the same story in some form or another. Anxiety and panic are very powerful and can definitley be both scary and confusing in the beginning, in my opinion. Anxiety also can take a toll on us both physically and mentally. It can make us feel run down and it is mentally exhausting. I also found that when I worried about my heart health, I noticed every little symptom that I believed was related to my heart. I became so oversensitized to my body and also misinterepreted many of my 'symptoms' as something catastrophically wrong with me when the oppostie was true. I would constantly scan for problems, and when you search for them, you will find them. I had chest pains, muscle aches, heart palpatations...you name it, I noticed it.
I believed once I even entertained the possiblility that this could be anxiety, I started to get on the path to confronting it. I decided to get counseling and went on an SSRI...as with any challenge be it physical or mental, the more you know and the more you train to deal with it, the less daunting and scary it becomes. I believe we tend to fear what we don't understand and anxiety is no different in my book.
You are going to get through this. Do you have access to counseling?