Hi, im 23 years old and i've had anxiety since i was 16 years old from a bad molly roll i did back then, pressure in the head, thick tightness in my chest, denationalization , the whole 9. It Ended up going away after about 6 or 7 months.Got my life back was able to go out with friends and enjoyed all the things i was able to do again. I was given a second chance. I Pretty much swore off all drugs for the most part, i pretty much only drank since the and i occasionally smoked some weed to fall asleep. few years later i tried molly again at a party. Same exact experience, horrible panic constantly, scared of absolutely everything horrible denationalization. i was put on prozac and xanax which i swore i would never do and was starting to get back to myself again with that and knowing what to do from the previous time (knowing its all in my head,being able to turn it off with concentration ect ect). Since Then i pretty much conquered my Anxiety and ive lived a normal life since then (i was about 19). Nothing scared me i was able to do anything i wanted to. The cockiness got to my head and i began doing some coke with friends on rare occasion, I'm talking like maybe a dozen time in the last two years. Yea i know I'm probably the biggest dipshit alive. Anyway, The Last time i did it was a bout 3 weeks ago. i was at a show with some friends and did little more then i usually do/was also drinking at the time. probably did 4 or 5 lines (i usually only do one or two max. needless to say i was actually fine at the show no issues didn't freak out or have a panic attack at all. the next day i went home and i was on an awful hangover from both the drinking and drugs. just felt super out of it but not really anxious until the next night when at about 9 o clock i had what i think was the worst panic attack i think I've ever had. Everything was hot, nothing could calm me down none of my techniques have worked, trembling , Shaking, Feeling Freezing and also burning at the same time. i know alot of those sound like withdraw symptoms but I'm Almost a month in and i still feel all of these symptoms. The Tightness in my chest is unbearable, the pressure in my head is unbearable. i have chills that run thru my arms and back up my neck. Absolutely nothing is enjoyable to me at all, everything i loved doing every tv show ive loved every band i love gives me 0 joy. im scared of going to work im scared of coming home every minute of my life i am just absolutely terrified cause nothing helps this at all. i feel like i just went o far this time and i ruined myself, this is is. this is the end. i started taking GABA and L-Theanine to help with my neurotransmitters but they are mediocre at best. i just have no grasp of what to do. ive never felt something so powerful before. to make matters worse i live about 1000 miles away from all my family and most of my freinds. Is This it? am i ever gonna feel ANYTHING again? There is no way this is normal. I just want to be excited to go home or excited to work. i Feel nothing but what i think i the worst anxiety ive ever had that no matter what i do i cannot escape from.