I'm trying so hard :(

[amber122o]

I try not to think about what's wrong with me but it is so hard I try to go for walks and it's to hard I've been taken walks everyday it doesn't seam any better has anyone tryed the Lindon method ik its alot of money but like so many people are cured by it has anyone tryed it cause I don't want to spend so much money and for it not to work the stories of people so many people who overcame there anxiety really wants me to do it I just want it all to go away and feel like myself again

[amber122o]

What about fish oils and st. John's wort are those good vitamins to take

[nursegirl6572]

It's good that she sent the email.  I would ask them about trying an SSRI, like Zoloft, Prozac, Lexapro...either instead of, or in addition to the Wellbutrin.  Those kinds of meds are common first line treatments for anxiety.  They have a high success rate, especially when combined with therapy.

[amber122o]

Thanks try not to let it I go outside at least a couple times a day even though how uncomfortable it is

[Lexc]

I definitely get anxious about going outside which I know is something I shouldn't have to think twice about but yes Its worse now when I'm out in or in crowds. Probably because there's so much to take in. There was a point where I used to get panic attacks when thinking about going out but even worse when I was on the bus. Thankfully it has got better which goes to show that it can improve. I think the worse thing you can do us to prevent you from going out because then it almost becomes a phobia. Sounds a bit stupid but I started by making sure i was with someone when I was out or just stuck in my headphones and went for a walk. Any distraction until I felt ok. U still get this but trying not to let it ruin my days.

[amber122o]

Thank you it is difficult its hard for me like its hard for me to go outside is it like that for you to

[Lexc]

I had never heard of DR until about 5 mins ago when I read your post and realised that i am experiencing this. I had no idea that it even had a name but this is exactly what I have been experiencing. I suffered from extreme anxiety years ago and although it has got better I have never felt normal since. I always feel as if I am in a dream or like I'm just watching the world go by but not par of it. I wondered if it was just me or did everyone see the world this way but thanks to your post I am now aware that it is recognised. Sorry I can't offer anymore support or reassurance to you now but I can say that you're not alone in feeling this way. I hope things improve for you because although it's not taken so seriously I know how difficult it is to feel like this. Take care, lex xx

[amber122o]

She said I do have derealization and she said she's never heard of anyone having it and she's gonna email a consuler and see what they think and I'm on wellbutrin 150 mg twice a day I'm sorry I just want it to go away and my therapist said that I should go back to work like 4 hours shifts twice a week for now but he decided to put me on for 22 hours next week and one of them is a 9-6 Idk if I can work all that but ill try

[nursegirl6572]

You ARE trying so hard, and that's great.  What you keep seeming to miss, is that this TAKES TIME.  It's only been a couple of days since the last time you said basically the same thing you said above.

Also, with DR, often times, more than noticing gradual improvements, the DR just kind of "disappears", without you noticing.  That's how it happened for me.  One day, I just realized it was gone!  I'm sure there was a gradual improvement, but I didn't notice it.  

I know you're in therapy, but I forget, are you on any meds?  If not, you may want to consider it...meds can really help.

I know it's so hard, but you really just HAVE to resign yourself to the fact that you may have to deal with this for a while, instead of putting so much pressure on yourself to see changes right away.  It's not going to be the rest of your life....I know the idea of feeling like this for a couple months is dreadful, but think about it...it doesn't impair your ability to do ANYTHING...so you can continue to live life.  Sure, it's a horribly uncomfortable feeling...but it is harmless.  And, in the grand scheme of things...a few months is not much.  

Looking back, my DR seems like nothing, a drop in the bucket, but at the time, I felt terrible and wanted it gone.  I actually was SO relieved to find out it was a REAL symptom.  I couldn't figure out WHAT was going on.  I can't tell you HOW many eye appts I had...I was just convinced something was wrong with my vision.  

I really wish you would just be patient with yourself and give this some time.  Whether you do the Linden method, or your own therapist, or meds, or a combination...ALL of those methods take time.  This is not going to just go away overnight.  You're in desperation mode...looking for that quick or easy fix.  It isn't out there.  All of these methods require time.

Trust me...just keep doing what you're doing...keep yourself VERY busy, the busier the better, keep up with the therapy, and look into meds, if you aren't taking something already.

The more you keep ruminating over hating this feeling, the more you reinforce it.  I KNOW you're frustrated, but addressing anxiety is a process that requires patience.  How did your therapy appt go?  What did your therapist say?

Hang in there.