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Bizarre feelings and thoughts
Hey there,
I'm a 20 something teenage male. I have no history of serious health problems and there's no history of mental illness in my family. I have some serious questions.
I shake on a regular basis. My hands shake often and are often accompanied with feelings of nervousness, paranoia and downright negativity. When the feelings intensify (only after caffeine), my lip often begins shaking as well and I start to act really crazy. I ramble for hours on end about unrelated topics, I feel very insecure and sad about humanity. Often when this happens, I'll begin to catch very unusual and uncharacteristic thoughts. I find myself thinking of destroying the world and even thinking of murder. I feel like I am proccessing thoughts at a mile a minute and it's very hard to control what I think of. For example, when i say I think of murder, it's not as if I sit in a corner and plot to kill real people. It's thoughts of murder and ending lives and of being a psycho pop into my head. Thoughts will be along the lines of thinking about the heads of the pharmaceutical industry dying a long and painful death followed by the thought "I'm a psycho." Obviously, this is a little concerning to me.
On the flip side, sometimes I will experience a state which is similar but very different to the one described above. It's a feeling accompanied by no shaking but similar extremely fast thoughts. I usually can't stop focusing on everything and anything no matter how small. I read and process massive amounts of information in a very short period of time (I'm an extremely fast reader) and I find I remember almost everything I learn in this period. I mean, my reading comprehension seems to go through the roof when compared to normal as well as my work ethic and level of focus.
I've never been in a fight or for that matter committed any violent acts (except for towards my brothers of course:P) but the issue is in how it makes me feel. I hate the first feeling and love the second. Has anyone experienced anything so bizarre as this before?
I'm a 20 something teenage male. I have no history of serious health problems and there's no history of mental illness in my family. I have some serious questions.
I shake on a regular basis. My hands shake often and are often accompanied with feelings of nervousness, paranoia and downright negativity. When the feelings intensify (only after caffeine), my lip often begins shaking as well and I start to act really crazy. I ramble for hours on end about unrelated topics, I feel very insecure and sad about humanity. Often when this happens, I'll begin to catch very unusual and uncharacteristic thoughts. I find myself thinking of destroying the world and even thinking of murder. I feel like I am proccessing thoughts at a mile a minute and it's very hard to control what I think of. For example, when i say I think of murder, it's not as if I sit in a corner and plot to kill real people. It's thoughts of murder and ending lives and of being a psycho pop into my head. Thoughts will be along the lines of thinking about the heads of the pharmaceutical industry dying a long and painful death followed by the thought "I'm a psycho." Obviously, this is a little concerning to me.
On the flip side, sometimes I will experience a state which is similar but very different to the one described above. It's a feeling accompanied by no shaking but similar extremely fast thoughts. I usually can't stop focusing on everything and anything no matter how small. I read and process massive amounts of information in a very short period of time (I'm an extremely fast reader) and I find I remember almost everything I learn in this period. I mean, my reading comprehension seems to go through the roof when compared to normal as well as my work ethic and level of focus.
I've never been in a fight or for that matter committed any violent acts (except for towards my brothers of course:P) but the issue is in how it makes me feel. I hate the first feeling and love the second. Has anyone experienced anything so bizarre as this before?
Pharmaceuticals are not an option. Thanks for your help though Alex, it's very appreciated.
I've experinced similar things...
I was diagnosed bipolar disorder.....only a doctor can tell you what you have...
I would sugest going to a phychatric hospital (not cuz your crazy) but because they can give you a
diagnosis of what type of disorder you may suffer from. If you don't want to check into a hospital try getting a phychatrist. From there you can findout what medication you need to be on in order to treat the symtoms and make them go away,
I was diagnosed bipolar disorder.....only a doctor can tell you what you have...
I would sugest going to a phychatric hospital (not cuz your crazy) but because they can give you a
diagnosis of what type of disorder you may suffer from. If you don't want to check into a hospital try getting a phychatrist. From there you can findout what medication you need to be on in order to treat the symtoms and make them go away,
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