i have been having extreme derealization and depersonalization for the past 8 months. I'm just giving up on everything. I have a feeling that this will never go away. I feel like i have to live with this forever and it just bothers me so much thinking i can't ever enjoy my life again. It even got worse from last night i dont even know why. I spent half of the day today in bed because the only way im not thinking about my DP/DR is when im sleeping. I read so many stories today on different Forums about people having for 12-13 years and some people forever its just making me lose all my hope. I have been living with this for 8-9 months now and i never had a normal moment in the past 9 months. I tried meditating, exercising, eating healthy, vitamins nothing helps. Until yesterday at least i felt okay when i was at home but from last night that i woke up in sweat and thinking my head has gone blank and forced myself back to sleep, i have felt much worse than before and now even looking at things around my room freaks me out..like as soon as i blink and move my head and look at stuff it feels like im looking at pictures or a painting..i think i will never go back to normal..i dont know how many more months, years i can go on with this thing..im really giving up...
i also tend to worry about my health all the time and search my symptoms on the web. i think i have MS, Stomach Cancer, and other problems and i just cant stop worrying. I have done a full blood test and a CT scan from the head and they were normal. I just have constant derealization and depersonalization, muscle twitches, i feel tired all the time, i get stomach pain, my brain feels foggy and i feel weird i dont know how to explain it...and some days i wake up with this pain right where my heart is..its like a different kind of pain..more like a dull, gnawing pain..