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Deployed Soldier...
So here is the thing> I'll start from the beginning. I was just randomly sitting in my chair in my room and I got hit right then and there. I started to have a anxiety attack. I'm currently deployed and am about to be home in a couple days. I just keep thinking that I can't go to the mental building here on base because if I do that could stop me from going home. So I been reaching out to 3 of my close friends here. The only time I'm content and my mind isn't running is when I'm talking about everything that's going on in my mind. None of my days have been bad as the first but now I'm on day 4 and I'm still having thoughts run through my head. I'm going home in a week, and I'm getting married while on leave. The attacks I'm having have nothing to do with me being home so I don't know why I'm exactly having them. So the only time I feel content is when I'm talking to my friends I can trust about my situation and when I'm talking to my Fiance. I'm reaching out for hits, tips, and just motivation to help me fight this off. I know I can. I'm a fighter.
Hooah.
Hooah.
Thank you, An I encourage people to respond. As I might be going through a mild anxiety attack, I've never had them. An since I'm here deployed in Afghanistan. There are a lot of resources open to me... First is always the people closest to you. I vented and that alone seriously helped numb my anxiety attacks down quite a bit, I'm starting to be open about it. An the more and more I hear this is a proven thing that happens to a lot of people before returning home, I feel a little bit more comfort. Today I went and actually set up a appointment with a Chaplin (pastor) I haven't gone to anyone for professional help other than people who have been in my shoes, and well the Chaplains are trained to help out in a lot of areas such as thoughts and whats going on in our minds while being deployed. I'm going with one of my friends who I've been completely opened to about everything. An ever since that I felt 110% percent better. I went over 4 hours with out having a single thought run through my mind. I felt normal for the first time in a week. So I guess in a way I feel as if I'm kicking anxiety in the a$$ for now. But now as I'm back. I still popped open my journal and I wrote what I thought was needed to write. (a since of meditation). I have thoughts running but they aren't as close to as strong as what they have been. I just feel that venting, and writing is the best way to keep my head on straight as of right now.
I figured going to a Chaplin I will get to know more or less if what I'm going through is "actually normal" but if I get home and it all goes away. I will be satisfied with that. Knowing 1 building down is the metal clinic where I can get a full check up if it ever returns. I'm just waiting to wake up one morning with a full nights rest and my mind will be clear. I'm only a couple days away. An then I expect to have anxiety of seeing the girl I first feel in love with for the first time in 8months :)
But I'm just wondering now, if this is just a mild case that will go away soon or later? 5 days now of being paranoid, and freaking out is enough so I been finding ways to keep my mind in the right spot. (Believe me if this thing is towards the end... I plan on staying here and helping others) Knowing there is people out there suffering from the same thing I've been going through but so much more, and never knowing that makes me want to stick around and give encouraging advice. So I would like to thank anyone and everyone who is on here to helping each other out.
I figured going to a Chaplin I will get to know more or less if what I'm going through is "actually normal" but if I get home and it all goes away. I will be satisfied with that. Knowing 1 building down is the metal clinic where I can get a full check up if it ever returns. I'm just waiting to wake up one morning with a full nights rest and my mind will be clear. I'm only a couple days away. An then I expect to have anxiety of seeing the girl I first feel in love with for the first time in 8months :)
But I'm just wondering now, if this is just a mild case that will go away soon or later? 5 days now of being paranoid, and freaking out is enough so I been finding ways to keep my mind in the right spot. (Believe me if this thing is towards the end... I plan on staying here and helping others) Knowing there is people out there suffering from the same thing I've been going through but so much more, and never knowing that makes me want to stick around and give encouraging advice. So I would like to thank anyone and everyone who is on here to helping each other out.
Yeah anxiety can spring from just about anything without you expecting it. Even the "returning home" might be the cause. .. not saying it is. But easily could be.
But your a soldier. . . So that alone can have some impact. Not uncommon.
Or maybe its that your getting married thats kinda stressing you out.
But yeah hang in there. (not sure why you cant go to the MED there. dont know how things work there. . . But maybe a quick talk with them might help)- But anyways. . . If you feel like you can hang in there till you get home thats good.
But I would like to suggest one thing. Even if you feel like its "gone" when you get home. . .Just make a single appointment for a talk with either just your doctor or a therapist. Maybe even tell your fiance about it. Not in details. . . but just the quick resume of things.
thing is this. . . If you indeed are having some anxiety issues, they might vanish when you get home. But when you get back into the situation where your anxiety has its residence. . . well it might return. . .and even stronger.
And not trying to cause more anxiety for you, but just trying to tell you to be prepared.
Im gonna guess im younger then you. Im 25 in a couple of months and had anxiety issues for about 7 years. 5 of them i simply had no clue what Anxiety was.
And there is no doubt in my mind had someone helped me focus on the anxiety the first year. . .Well I would not be in my current situation.
Mine pretty much showed it self the worst when I was outside my town here. be it 10 or 50 KM away. I would get sudden panic attack. And had no clue why. As soon as I got back to my town things where fine. And well had no idea what Anxiety was so didnt think much about it.
As years went by things got a bit worse and worse by each week. . . until as now sadly. . . I have a hard time feeling "safe" outside my street, or even home.
So lets just pretend here for a bit. . . .
What if your Anxiety originates from being stationed. . .Well where ever you are stationed.
When you get home to the fiance and family. . . Well it goes away. As soon as you get back out to the field it returns. . .
this might make things allot worse. Doesnt mean you can learn to control it in those areas. . . But you might need some help to do so.
Thats why im trying to point out you should not ignore it completely even if it vanishes as soon as you exit the plane in your hometown.
Take a hour to talk with a doc or a therapist.- And if they figure it to be just stress over something as getting married or something like that. Great. You might have spendt a bit of cash. . . But has to be better then ignoring it and it returning with twice the force when you return yo duty.
Just my advice. Not talking as a expert but simply a diagnosed anxiety patient.
Good luck, and congrats on getting married.
But your a soldier. . . So that alone can have some impact. Not uncommon.
Or maybe its that your getting married thats kinda stressing you out.
But yeah hang in there. (not sure why you cant go to the MED there. dont know how things work there. . . But maybe a quick talk with them might help)- But anyways. . . If you feel like you can hang in there till you get home thats good.
But I would like to suggest one thing. Even if you feel like its "gone" when you get home. . .Just make a single appointment for a talk with either just your doctor or a therapist. Maybe even tell your fiance about it. Not in details. . . but just the quick resume of things.
thing is this. . . If you indeed are having some anxiety issues, they might vanish when you get home. But when you get back into the situation where your anxiety has its residence. . . well it might return. . .and even stronger.
And not trying to cause more anxiety for you, but just trying to tell you to be prepared.
Im gonna guess im younger then you. Im 25 in a couple of months and had anxiety issues for about 7 years. 5 of them i simply had no clue what Anxiety was.
And there is no doubt in my mind had someone helped me focus on the anxiety the first year. . .Well I would not be in my current situation.
Mine pretty much showed it self the worst when I was outside my town here. be it 10 or 50 KM away. I would get sudden panic attack. And had no clue why. As soon as I got back to my town things where fine. And well had no idea what Anxiety was so didnt think much about it.
As years went by things got a bit worse and worse by each week. . . until as now sadly. . . I have a hard time feeling "safe" outside my street, or even home.
So lets just pretend here for a bit. . . .
What if your Anxiety originates from being stationed. . .Well where ever you are stationed.
When you get home to the fiance and family. . . Well it goes away. As soon as you get back out to the field it returns. . .
this might make things allot worse. Doesnt mean you can learn to control it in those areas. . . But you might need some help to do so.
Thats why im trying to point out you should not ignore it completely even if it vanishes as soon as you exit the plane in your hometown.
Take a hour to talk with a doc or a therapist.- And if they figure it to be just stress over something as getting married or something like that. Great. You might have spendt a bit of cash. . . But has to be better then ignoring it and it returning with twice the force when you return yo duty.
Just my advice. Not talking as a expert but simply a diagnosed anxiety patient.
Good luck, and congrats on getting married.
I feel it will......if not, seek help. You have a very mild form of anxiety and the sooner you nip it in the bud....the better. It's awesome that you are finding ways to combat it on your own.....that's a good first step.
thank you, I haven't had many attacks lately after the 2nd day I started to find ways that cool me down. Just doing exactly opposite of what my thoughts. Its just annoying now because I have these crazy thoughts in my head that wont escape. It's like I go to sleep with out a problem then I wake up in the morning and they are still there. Maybe once or twice throughout the day I will have a mini attack. I'm just praying this all goes away. Everyone says it will soon as I get back home. I just hope that's the case.
Anxiety is sneaky like that! Even though you are happy about all you have to look forward to while on leave....it can still create some anxiety. It may all be very over-whelming for you right now. Exercise is wonderful for anxiety....works off the extra adrenaline. Journaling your feelings (even if you throw them away) is a form of release for us and is very therapeutic. Try to keep your mind occupied on other thingsm while staying busy physically. I think once you get home you will feel better. No matter how much you love someone.....a case of the jitters can creep up on us, but that's not a bad thing. It's like the scary excitement you feel as you stand in line for that big roller coater ride at an amusement park. It's something you definitely want to do and will enjoy, but you are nervous just the same. When you have nobody to talk to...try the journaling, I think you'll find it helps. I hope this helps......congratulations....and thank you for your service!
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