I have been suffering from anxiety from 1 month ago and m convinced i ll die with a heartattack any second every night m affraid to sleep cz i knw i wont wake up a c strange vissions i see that m going up goin to heaven or to hell my mind is full of thoughts about death and whenever i go out i m sure i wont go back home n i wont c my family anymore while i am writting this i feel i ll die after it i have a fear to close my eyes
Hey there, I wanted to first remind you that you are not alone!!! The fear of doom but specifically death is very common because as humans I think on some level we like control and a sence of what's coming next and with death we usually get neither.. So it's again the fear of the unknown. I myself am very afraid of the whole death concept, how we only get one life and that's that, what comes next etc...... I lost my dad when he was 40 to a rare cancer, and I was only 15 when this happened and I think I have always been a thinker about death more so then normal people, but my dad dying took it from thinkings about it to knowing it's reality for everyone!!! I am very scared of the same thing that happened with my dad or anything really happening to me or my son or any family for that matter, from the time I was quite little to now I would always visulize something happening or being told bad news and would just loose it!!! I would cry and think the worst, and just be so upset knowing one day it will happen in some way or another!!
So what I do that helps is to start try and not let yourself go there or at least get to this point with it.. If night time is a trigger like it totally is for me I would suggest thinking about only positive things before bed. Or even watching tv or a funny movie to go to sleep.. I also know counceling could help so you could get some of this out as well, I did that after my dad.. I think the main advice I would give you is this, tell yourself yes I will die someday, I don't know when or how, or what it will be like.. I will assume I don't know, because I'm not supposed to know.. However I do only get this one life and I will not waist so much time and happiness on fear of death.. I won't allow myself to get so sad and to let so many tears fall on something I cannot control etc... I will enjoy my life, my time here, and with my family to the fullest extent.. That way when the end does come I won't have regrets on how I spent my time, but I can say I lived my life and it was a good one!!!!!! I just force myself to think thoughts like that.. I don't think obsessively about it in general like some people but I have my good months where it pretty much never crosses my mind vs. The months where it comes up quite a bit more frequently, but remembering these thoughts does keep me in check a little bit more then a wondering mind :-) take care care and good luck!!!!
It does sound like anxiety along with some depression maybe. Only your Dr can tell you this for sure. Take care. Remar