I made a mistake

[Landonis35]

A few months ago I was at the mall with acouple of friends when a guy walked up to me and asked me if I wanted to buy some LSD. I didnt even know what it was. My friend in the group (everybody else I just met for the first time) told me to buy it and that we should try it. Everybody else was saying dont do it but my friend wanted to do it so I did. Later that night I took it out and did 2 block things. My friend said it was ok and I knew nothing about the drug. I had only even smoked weed like 3 times before this. I did it and nothing happened till around an hour later it was a pretty fun trip. The next day I was at the park with my friend and all of the sudden everything started moving and it was pretty sweet till demons starting popping up. I saw dead people hanging out of trees and demons everywhere. I was so scared. This has left a mark and I can't unsee the demons. I see them sometimes. I randomly get anxiety and really scared. I have constant mood swings of rage, fear, and depression. Every time I'm in the dark I get extreme fear for my life. What is wrong with me? I had depression and almost commuted suicide a year prior. Sometimes it gets really bad and I have cut my arms before...  I'm 14 now how long will this be here? Should I get help? I don't know what to do

[rubenstein821]

Anything that you put into your body that is mind altering can be very harful..
I know this from experience.. I used to be a very heavy drug addict about 5 years ago.. i am only 21 btw and 3 years ago out of wo where smoked some spice that a friend wanted me to try and boom first panic attack that left me with now a full panic and anxiety disorder.. I am terrified almost all the time.. some days are beter than others but... once you have a scary experience like what you have described it is really hard to get it out of thought... good news is that it will eventually pass although it does take time and therapy for alot of people.. I would recomend meds until you try intense therapy only because sometimes meds can make a problem like that worse.. and no one wants that,

hope that helped you!

[nirvana1234]

Sounds scary, maybe therapy forshure will help... Don't do drugs.. Is bad really bad....

[ashabee22]

Yes you should get some counseling.. my advice is to not do any drugs anymore. Also, if you r scared of being in the dark keep a small night light on.. I used to get anxiety about the dark too and saw ghosts a lot and sleeping with night light helped me feel better and I didn't see them anymore. Have you talked to any of your family about your depression and cutting? You should and get some help too.. you're not alone