I feel like I am going to die.. especially at night

[Bizzerbee]

Hello,

This is my first time ever posting on a site like this. I am just so desperate to feel reassured. I am an American  currently teaching art in Venezuela so I don't have access to good health care. I have always been a stresser and I have had panic attacks all my life but as of recently they have morphed and taking on so many faces that it is hard for me to be sure that it is anxiety or panic. I have this dreadful feeling most of the time that something is wrong with me and I constantly think 'what if I just drop dead right now?' The other thing I am experiencing that I believe is amplifying that feeling is this chest heaviness and I wake up at night because my chest feels like it is collapsing and that I am going to stop breathing and die. Some nights I jerk awake and take one bIg gasp of air as if I really had stopped breathing and it forced me awake. I tell my self it is anxiety but then I also say well you are a smoker so many you have lung cancer or maybe copd or sleep apnea, maybe you have seriously damaged your lungs and one of these nights you will just not wake up. Does anyone else feel plagued with a sense of doom like they will die at any moment? Has anyone else experienced weird breathing, lung, chest, heart issues at night?
Please help. I am so scared most of the time and it is making me feel so depressed. I should be happy. I just got this great job and I am getting married in June. I want to feel normal like everyone else.

[Bizzerbee]

HI,

I really think that my situation would improve if I was on medication. The problem is I live in Venezuela and I dont have a good doctor that I can talk to and see what pill would be right for me. I took Welbutrin for a few months last year and that really helped but then I ran out and I cant find it here.
I am most anxious being I am a worrier. I worry about everything from wether or not I am a good teacher to if I have lung cancer.

[lillyjay05]

I also used to constantly think I was just going to die it was pretty much all I thought about and I I used to get real dizzy and feel like I was going to faint. Just thought I would add that :)

[lillyjay05]

Hi bizzerbee thanks for your reply. I am on citlpram  and I have to say it was the best thing I ever done. When I first started them I was very panicky and anxious  for the first 2 week's my doc told me I would be so I stuck with them and I have seen a huge improvement I do still get a little panicky for time to time but nothing like beige. I know a lot of ppl don't like to start meds but if you feel like they would help I would defo recommend them. What is your anxiety mostly about and how do you cope with it : )

[Bizzerbee]

I have headaches and neck aches all the time. Doctor say it is from tension. I have not been on meds because once i was prescribed Paxil and I had the worst panic attack of my life that sent me to the ER . I really thought I was going to die that night. It was terrifying. I live in Venezuela so getting prescribed something else is hard. Do you think getting on the right meds was worth it?

[lillyjay05]

Hi everyone,
I feel the same so worried about dying  I started taken meds about 4 years ago and they helped a lot I still have this awful.feeling something bad will happen. I also have really bad head pain don't know if any of usr experiance  this as well

[Bizzerbee]

I am just dreading sleep. I am always so tiered after work but I anticipate going to sleep and feeling like I am suffocating. How can I be experiencing anxiety while I am asleep? And why does it happen even though I am aware that it is probably anxiety?

[Embrace123]

I know what your going through.. How are you tonight ?

[Embrace123]

I know what your going through.. How are you tonight ?