thank you very much, for this and your other comment. I think your right, I am self conscious. I am also in the process of assessment for anxiety, so hopefully these problems will resolve themselves when I have figured out exactly why I get into such a state. I hope your anxiety improves.
Anxiety can do some strange things, it is a possibility that you suffer from anxiety, symptoms are different for each individual and it sounds like you have a serious case of it. you may also be suffering from a strong case of self conciousness, and anxiety together, feeling that you may stumble fall or just embarass yourself in public, you should see a psychologist and definately get something for the anxiety, if you don't like meds, try to sip some hot chamomile tea before you go out or have a shot of brandy to relax your muscles, I'm not a doc, but also a sufferer of anxiety, hope this helps.