It's taking over my life

[Mizzztaylor]

I've never struggled with anxiety or panic attacks until recently. I'm 34 and pregnant with my second child. She's due in about a month. My pregnancy was a huge surprise. A few months into it my bf broke up with me and left me completely on my own for the pregnancy. Since then I've found out some things about him that lead me to believe he is a true sociopath. It was a huge shock to me. For the first few weeks after finding out about him I did ok. My main focus was keeping it together for my unborn daughter.  Lately though, I've been struggling with anxiety and panic attacks. I have this fear of bad things happening to the people I love. I hate letting my son out of my site. I get this extreme fear when I send him off to school that he's going to get hurt. I've been wanting him to sleep with me at night. I keep worrying my mom is going to have a heart attack and my dad is going to die and I have a fear that my baby is going to be stillborn. I'm also extremely worried that because of how extreme it is now I'm going to struggle with post partum depression. I'm worried when my baby gets here ill be a bad mom and not want to take care of her. It's really consuming me. I'm scared to tell anyone because I don't want anyone to think I'm not fit to raise my baby and the child I already do have. Lately I've been waking up in the middle of the night with panic attacks. They're almost paralyzing. I feel like I'm slowly going crazy. I'm trying very hard to hold it together because my ex has some seriously deranged behavior and I know I need to be able to keep my daughter safe from him. I don't know what I do or who to talk to. I also dont want to live like this for the rest of my life. Do you think there is hope that my anxiety may pass with time?

[Mizzztaylor]

Thanks for the supportive words you guys. I'm just trying to talk myself through it and look forward to the day when I feel lik myself again. Kaylah, thank you for the advice. I hope your appt goes really well for you and you can get started on moving forward as well. You have so much to live for, especially your precious son, and I hope you can start to enjoy life to its fullest without being burdened with fear an anxiety.

[Kaylah_Jayde]

Hey :) I have also been having a really rough time with anxiety for the last 2-3 weeks and its has been hell!! Anxiety is literally a living hell... I hate it:( I hate the symptoms that come along with it and I hate all the thoughts I get because of it... I have an 18mth old little boy and I am constantly worried about him also... The past 2-3 weeks have been so overwhelming for me and I just about cant cope, I am also scared telling people will make them think I'm not right to take care of my son... I think I'm going crazy too, but you gotta know its the ones that think their not crazy that really are the crazy ones!!  You are perfectly sane, and feeling of going crazy, dying, etc etc are all common symptoms of anxiety! My anxiety scares me a lot but I have booked in to talk to a psychologist next week.. Have you thought about doing that? Maybe would be good to air your problems out with someone that will understand and not be judgemental... And maybe get in touch with PANDA look them up they help mothers with postnatal depression, and anxiety etc... They offer phone support and they link you in with heaps of useful services. Give them a go, they have helped me ALOT!!

[Life360_Dave]

Hi Mizz, sorry about all your going through. Its so terrible when people hurt us and leave us stranded. But you know what, you have your sweet daughter to raise and your experience will help grow and will be a blessing back to you. This experience that you are going through has value and your daughter and new child will reap the benefits of your sorrow.
Be strong in yourself and have faith that you are not alone.
Your fear of bad things happening is a result of not being in control of your future.
Just take it one day at a time as all things pass and tomm a new day will come.