i thought about symptoms that cross over. how can you differenciate schitzophrenia and OCD, if the "voices" telling you to do something is a compulsion. im confused because before i had obsessions but they included positive compulsions that would relieve the stress. like believing i have a social anxiety disorder and then the "compulsion" being actually trying to cure my anxiety disorder. over these last seven months my mental processes have seemed the whackest. my doctor told me its depersonalization that leads me to montioring my own thought processes, she wasnt listening to me, that pissed me off. over time it got worse, i stopped trying to be sane whille taking tests and just failed them. i know its partly the derealization but the amount of time that i've had it makes the information permanently strange and ive been watching as my personality changes. i dont think people hate me or think badly of me, i just hate myself all the time, which is different than before. i act in certain ways to calculate the outcome and try to keep everything imaginably "controlled". i think what i mean is to try and keep my mental processes safe. sometimes i hear my thoughts and they dont sound like mine, which makes everything worse. unlike if i were to have schitzophrenia, i dont hear voices of other people, but i do hear or think conversations obsessively, i also compare and contrast people within my mental process. yeah i think im having audible thoughts. i also have been thinking im borderline, but idk if thats my hypochondria or if its real.