Severe brain tumour anxiety- HELP!!

[blog456]

For nearly a year I have been experiencing severe head pains, sensations and over thinking.
My head feels completely different on the right compares to the left.
I have tingling, burning, head pressure- (when I get stressed I get pressure in my eye and pressure all around the temple). I feel as though my neck is stiff and often use the method of fight or flight. I have this constant pain in the back of my head on the right side. I cant seem to get rid of this.
Now its got to the point where I am constantly looking on the mirror and feeling both sides of my head- comparing.
On the right side of my head it feels more swollen, looks more rounded and bigger. I also have squidgy lumps in the right side of head by the temple. I can feel them on the left side too but not as prominent. I now have a doctors appointment on the 27th Sept regarding these lumps and my symptoms.
I have seen my GP several times and he has put it down to anxiety. I have very non believent of this.
I will not believe any professional!

I had a CT scan on my sinuses about 2 months ago- that come back clear. I was not satisfied as it wasn't a full head scan. I have a blood test done which come back normal.
I have asked the doctor what the CT scan would show and he said they look at the brain surroundings and if there was any tumour it would show.

I have had 3 eye tests and there is no pressure- nothing.

I have a three year old daughter and i am petrified that I will have a tumour, die and wont be here for her.
I want the answer-

IS THIS JUST ANXIETY?

This has started since having my Daughter. When she was younger I used to fear that I would lose her or that some thing would happen to her because she is so precious to me. It feels as though this has switched and I have a fear of me having something wrong.

[AnxiousNoMore]

We can;t diagnose you but your doctors have, and all is fine which supports their theory that it is just anxiety and headaches which many people get regularly and they don't get tumors. Anxiety makes you over-analyze your body looking for clues to the "symptoms" you feel. In your case headaches has coupled with anxiety to make you feel there is something wrong with your brain.

This fear and self-analysis has worked you up  to the point you are examining the outside of your skull and feel there are dangerous swellings there. despite the fact your brain is on the inside. The soft brain can't swell through the skull which is made of bone.

The key to resolving your anxiety will be if you can accept the doctor's diagnosis, instead of trying to self-diagnose yourself. You have no medical training, and this is all they do so try to accept this. It may not be easy to give up your self-diagnosing habits with anxiety biting you and whispering false ideas that something must be wrong, but lots of people have once they realize it is just fear.
You are better off seeing a therapist than more medical doctors at this point, since your problem is that you are unwilling to accept what the experts have decided, and the therapist will work with you to resolve your fears, if possible. The fact you worried something would happen to your daughter initially when there was no reason, and the switch-over has now occurred (again with no reason) that you mention suggests this will be a good place for the therapist to discuss with you. (Or you on your own might be able to resolve this issue, if you can look objectively at it as you might be able to just shuck your fears since they have no base.)  My relative is like that when she goes on vacation, always looking for what can go wrong with her adult family at home (her daughter went to NYC on business and she worried terrorists would blow her up, her husband was home during a snowstorm and she worried he would be driving in it, etc.) instead of focusing on the odds being in her favor that nothing is wrong.
Best of luck, and in summary a therapist might be able to resolve your issues if you go.

[blog456]

Thank you very much for your reply very sweet! Has reassured me a lot and I will refer myself to speak with a therapist. Maybe keep seeing professionals isn't easing my mind and trying to get over this fear on my own is impossible!

[AnxiousNoMore]

There are lots of self-help books on the subject, so if a therapist is out of your budget that might be an option. Your issue is straightforward as you already listed the problem you need to overcome, so I am not convinced you shouldn't give it a try to self solve this first though - just accept that there is nothing wrong and you will likely be free of anxiety, although some people just can't get over it no matter how hard they try. I worked myself up into fear mode of about a week once and had an ECG which said there was nothing wrong so I accepted that and never had any anxiety since, so self-cure works for some.
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Therapy is likely quicker since they are objectively looking at your situation as you explain it, however the resolution is the same in the end - you accepting that it is hurting you to imagine tragic scenarios that won't materialize.