Hi.
I'm 31 years old, and I had mild panic attacks when I was around 23 for a few months, but was lucky enough to read a book on meditation which described the "Safe Harbour meditation". This helped me immensely, and I have not had one since. It worked for me, but I don't know why, or if it surefire to help everyone.....
However.... Over the last few months I have had a very strange thing happening, which has just got to a peak in the last few days.
Basically, I feel awake, but it is like my subconscious mind is pushing to take over my "awake" mind.
Everywhere I go reminds me of a dream and I begin to drift towards that dream.
Places I have never been, or even familiar places have a new feel to them.
It's like, even though you can't put your finger on a dream, (just like after you have woken up from sleep, the dream made sense whilst asleep, but no sense when you are awake) I feel like it is real, but also my mind knows it cannot be. Very strange indeed I can tell you!
I also seem to recognise lots of (Not all) strangers faces. So....people I have never met before have familiar faces...... That is even weirder....
I am going through a lot of stress at the moment. I am away from my wife and daughter, and am unsure at the moment how we will fix our situation to be reunited. I know this has most likely contributed, but can anyone shed some light? please...... Even smells, or touch, or anything can make me feel like im dreaming the reality that should be normal while awake......
i have had no issue keeping myself in reality as such. In other words, no-one is aware that this is happening to me even when we are talking, as i try to keep myself in the room so to speak.
The other day however, my brother had a conversation with me, and I was awake, and i don't remember it.
I had just woken up, and had not been drinking the night before, but he remembers me clearly wide awake.
I think I must have just been trying to get out of the dream and been on auto pilot... i'm not sure...
Sorry for the long post. Thanks for listening, and if you have any advice or answers I will be eternally grateful.
Many thanks,
Duncan