PLEASE HELP-Not sure how to deal with this Anxiety or Panic attack

[kyliekristine]

I'm curreny 21 years old. I gave birth to my son 1 1/2 ago. He was delivered C-section, Since then Ive had gall bladder surgery. Everything seemed to be back to normal. I haven't experienced anything like this in my life before so it's very new to me. Summer of 08'. I was watching a movie w/ family and I gasped for air. My heart was pounding. I swore up and down that my throat was swelling up. I thought I was dying. I stayed up for hours all night thinking I was going to stop breathing while I was sleeping. So my boyfriend (father of my son) layed up all night next to me awake just to make sure. I really freaked him out. The next day I woke up I was thinking to myself like. This could only happen once, right? I got out of bed and was lightheaded and had this foggy like glaze over me (kind of hard for me to explain exactly how i felt) I felt like I was in a dream like everything around me just wasn't real including me having a child and my apartment like everything was like just UNREAL if you can relate please let me know. I feel like such an idiot telling people this but I believe it's time i start talking about it or I'm going to start thinking im insane, cuz I'm well on my way. So afterwards I got in the car w/ the family to take a ride thinking it would take it away. I couldn't eat for days I couldn't even stand on my two feet. Just laid still scared of feeling that 'feeling' again if you know wat I mean. I was so upset my son lost so much time w/ me and I couldn't do anything about it. I went to see a DR. went thro blood tests , pregnancy test. etc everything came back fine. She put me Wellbutrin. I stopped taking it. It wasnt doing anything. Miraculously it just ended up going away. I was scared for my family to leave. Thinking that if they did. I'd faint and my son wouldnt be able to help me cuz hes too small. But i got over it. It's been about 7 months and I feel as if the symptoms are beginning to come back. They come in jolts or like waves i almost feel as if i get butterflies in my stomach and then i feel very unreal and like im in a dream of some sort. then i talk my self out of it. Ive become very weird about leaving my house. It's like i feel fine until I know i have to go grocery shopping or anywhere in the public. But im thinking to myself why????? i thought i was better??? for those 7 months ive been able to eat out at a few resteraunts. go shopping. and do fine. Now it's back??? WHAT DO I DO??? I can't do this to my son.. My family thinks im crazy. I can't even hold a job in fear that If i do something wrong or WHATEVER it will trigger an attack and I'll collapse and people will either laugh or whatever they will do i dont know. I can't deal with this. I need help. My mother keeps telling me get a job. but i know i cant cuz i have this freaking anxiety about public or something. I need to know if anyonie else is experiecing any of these symptoms. And why do they come and go like that. Even months in between. It makes no sense. Ive been doing research for medications and i just dont know whats right bcuz alot of these are for depression and honestly im not depressed its just these freaking attacks. I would appreciated any response. It's greatly appreciated.

[molyba]

I don't have exactly all the same symptoms as you but I do have some of them.  When I have a panic attack, my heart starts racing and my breathing becomes irratic and I have to start breathing like I'm about to give birth.  Things around me start to feel or seem unreal, like I'm in a dream too.  Then when I finally calm down, I'm weak and a little dizzy.  I've never fainted though, but I've felt like it.  I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder with Post Traumatic Stress and Affective Instability.  I think that last part means I have severe anxiety, if not, I have that too. LOL  I'm on and anti-psychotic, and anti-depressant, and and anti-anxiety.  Geodon(anti-psychotic) works just fine. Lexapro(anti-depressant) seems to work good too. Nurontin(anti-anxiety) is questionable.  I don't think I'm on the right dosage with that medicine.  I still feel nervous some and that's just being at home.  When ever I go out side my home I get a little more nervous; sometimes a lot more nervous.  As for a job, I just had to quit mine because I was having panic attacks everyday there.  I don't know what I'm going to do for and income, but you should go see a psychiatrist soon.  I see one through the local teaching hospital, it's cheaper that way.

[mike1122]

Yes yes yes, im 15 years old but I had my first panic attack 2 months ago I know exactly how you feel I was up all night in bed with my hand on my heart and right next to me was my mom also awake to make sure I wasn't going to die. And then the next morning I was weak and dizzy and also felt so weird like I wasn't real or the things around me wasn't real I know exactly how you feel. I just posted a question like that 20 mins ago. You can ask me any questions if you want I might be able to help you