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Severe anxiety after drinking too much
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Last week I went out with friends and got so drunk I couldn't remember anything. I somewhat remember a friend saying we're leaving the bar, and I guess I walked to my house alone (thanks friends). I don't remember anything after, all I know is that once I realized where I was, it was 2 hours later I has walked in the opposite direction of my house in the middle of nowhere. I remember the walk home after that and fell asleep.
I am very scared that I did something really bad. During the night I had texted a good friend of mine that I was with another "friend", but by that time we had left the bar and I should've been on my own. I'm a male but there are a lot of gay people around in the city, especially at that time in the night who knows what could've happened to me in that state. I have no pain or anything, but by the time I was aware of anything I was in the middle of nowhere (maybe Im just watching too many movies like the hangover). Also what if I did something illegal or immoral to someone else? I don't know how I would react to these potential actions. A good thing shows that I was texting and calling numerous people throughout the blackout period, so that might have kept me busy while I was walking.
My gut is telling me that I remember going home, got home fine, and am not in pain so nothing probably happened. I was just walking aimlessly and eventually got home. However, I am terrified that something may have happened, I am getting an STD test in a month to make sure I'm OK. I have been very troubled by all of this and it is all I can think about.
Is it just my imagination that is driving me crazy, or do I have reason for concern?
Last week I went out with friends and got so drunk I couldn't remember anything. I somewhat remember a friend saying we're leaving the bar, and I guess I walked to my house alone (thanks friends). I don't remember anything after, all I know is that once I realized where I was, it was 2 hours later I has walked in the opposite direction of my house in the middle of nowhere. I remember the walk home after that and fell asleep.
I am very scared that I did something really bad. During the night I had texted a good friend of mine that I was with another "friend", but by that time we had left the bar and I should've been on my own. I'm a male but there are a lot of gay people around in the city, especially at that time in the night who knows what could've happened to me in that state. I have no pain or anything, but by the time I was aware of anything I was in the middle of nowhere (maybe Im just watching too many movies like the hangover). Also what if I did something illegal or immoral to someone else? I don't know how I would react to these potential actions. A good thing shows that I was texting and calling numerous people throughout the blackout period, so that might have kept me busy while I was walking.
My gut is telling me that I remember going home, got home fine, and am not in pain so nothing probably happened. I was just walking aimlessly and eventually got home. However, I am terrified that something may have happened, I am getting an STD test in a month to make sure I'm OK. I have been very troubled by all of this and it is all I can think about.
Is it just my imagination that is driving me crazy, or do I have reason for concern?
Also, my tailbone is hurting me now, but I don't know if its related to this event
I meant 1 month HIV test in my previous post.
I cannot sleep for more than 2 hours without waking up now. I feel like this is ruining my life and I am not even certain if anything actually happened.
Anus feel more sore than usual today, but likely due to heavy bowel movement this afternoon. It didn't hurt the first day after I blacked out, but that's because I didn't even pay attention to it because the though of this incident occurring didn't even cross my mind.
I cannot sleep for more than 2 hours without waking up now. I feel like this is ruining my life and I am not even certain if anything actually happened.
Anus feel more sore than usual today, but likely due to heavy bowel movement this afternoon. It didn't hurt the first day after I blacked out, but that's because I didn't even pay attention to it because the though of this incident occurring didn't even cross my mind.
Noticed two small bruises on my waist even 10 days after.
I was speaking to my friend after the bar through phone, then didn't contact him for 30 minutes. Why did I suddenly stop? This is scaring me most, along with the fact that I mentioned I was with somebody else.
I get pretty bad anus irritation too now, but its mainly for a few hours after going to the bathroom.
How reliable is a 3 month HIV test?
I was speaking to my friend after the bar through phone, then didn't contact him for 30 minutes. Why did I suddenly stop? This is scaring me most, along with the fact that I mentioned I was with somebody else.
I get pretty bad anus irritation too now, but its mainly for a few hours after going to the bathroom.
How reliable is a 3 month HIV test?
I feel that based on a few comments from my acquaintances, something happened at the bar with another guy, but they wont say anything directly to me.
All of the possible scenarios are going through my head, and it is interfering with my life constantly. I cant believe I put myself through this situation, how could I have done this if I am straight? Drinking because of social anxiety has just led me to worry about things even more. What kind of stupid decisions did I make?
I cant believe this. I wouldn't wish these feelings on anybody.
All of the possible scenarios are going through my head, and it is interfering with my life constantly. I cant believe I put myself through this situation, how could I have done this if I am straight? Drinking because of social anxiety has just led me to worry about things even more. What kind of stupid decisions did I make?
I cant believe this. I wouldn't wish these feelings on anybody.
Molly, sorry to hear about your story. You woke up in emergency and felt sore immediately, luckily with me that wasn't the case (only felt anything 1 week later, but now I doubt it is even related). The club I was at was not known for anything gay, although I'm sure they would let them in if they wanted to go to the club.
My "soreness" seemed to get a lot better a few hours after taking a shower. I guess there were numerous factors that could've played into this (like using cheap toilet paper when using public washrooms), so it was most likely a hygiene issue. Going to the doctor seems unnecessary at this point, as they will likely dismiss my paranoia and wont be able to determine anything until I get tested.
I think I am paranoid about this because I have seen a visibly drunk, straight guy get hit on and tricked by a gay guy in a regular club. I guess that image, coupled with my fear of uncertainty, and my imagination going wild is causing me to worry over nothing.
There is no point in wondering "what if", I will go get tested at 4 weeks and hopefully put my fears to rest.
My "soreness" seemed to get a lot better a few hours after taking a shower. I guess there were numerous factors that could've played into this (like using cheap toilet paper when using public washrooms), so it was most likely a hygiene issue. Going to the doctor seems unnecessary at this point, as they will likely dismiss my paranoia and wont be able to determine anything until I get tested.
I think I am paranoid about this because I have seen a visibly drunk, straight guy get hit on and tricked by a gay guy in a regular club. I guess that image, coupled with my fear of uncertainty, and my imagination going wild is causing me to worry over nothing.
There is no point in wondering "what if", I will go get tested at 4 weeks and hopefully put my fears to rest.
First of all... I would like to say that I'm sorry this happened to you.
From what I have gathered here, it sounds like you might have been either in a Gay bar or a bar that they tend it hang out at. Is this the case??
I would listen to Nursegirl and try to put this behind you. I'm all for you getting checked out... it couldn't hurt.
I haven't had a drink since 2007 but prior to that, there were 2 times that I completely lost recollection of the nights events. Something did happen to me during the last time I blacked out ( and I was not a heavy drinker..moderation for me). I woke up in the Hospital and the police confiscated my clothes, right down to the winter coat I was wearing. I knew something had happened because I was sore. You would know it if that scenario happened to you...believe me.
I will not lecture to you as I know just how bad you feel...just let this be a lesson for future outings with your friends. And you're right..some friends
My best to you,
Mollyrae
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From what I have gathered here, it sounds like you might have been either in a Gay bar or a bar that they tend it hang out at. Is this the case??
I would listen to Nursegirl and try to put this behind you. I'm all for you getting checked out... it couldn't hurt.
I haven't had a drink since 2007 but prior to that, there were 2 times that I completely lost recollection of the nights events. Something did happen to me during the last time I blacked out ( and I was not a heavy drinker..moderation for me). I woke up in the Hospital and the police confiscated my clothes, right down to the winter coat I was wearing. I knew something had happened because I was sore. You would know it if that scenario happened to you...believe me.
I will not lecture to you as I know just how bad you feel...just let this be a lesson for future outings with your friends. And you're right..some friends
My best to you,
Mollyrae
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