unconvinced....scared.....hopeless

[Haych22]

ive been going through this anxiety for 5months now, simply im over it....ill have days where im great and days where my chest/heart pains, shortness of breath, fatigued, have a lump i my throat, dizzy, unmotivated, no appitite, aches and pains, also triggers my GERD...its put a strain on my relationship, friendships, social life, job...i constatly have bad thought that theres something really wrong with me like MS, braintumor, stroke, heart disease...i cant help but stress out bout this! ive seen doctors & specailists and had heaps of tests, all normal! so its anxiety they tell me....i feel i need constant reassurance nothing is wrong, am i gunna be this way my whole life??? night time is horrible for me, i dont know why but my symptoms seem to come on so strong everynight out of the blue and all i want to do is take some diazapam and go to sleep so i dont have to deal with it, its awful....there has never been a cause for my anxiety its appeared from nowhere and wont go away! who had known anxiety could be so crippling to some! i feel lost and scared....

[Haych22]

i havnt done therapy yet but my doctors organised my referal to the phyc so hopfully today i will organise a app and i go back the the cardiologist tomorrow so i will vent to him about my chest pains and shortness of breath that comes and goes everyday, i know hes told me weve done all the tests and my heart is fine but i cant understand why i get pain there and its aparently nothing....to me its hard to understand...i cant find a cause for my anxiety, i should be the happiest ive been all my life right now like i was 5months ago, i admit getting older adds more stresses such as finacial, work, relationships etc. but i dont feel that im stressed over any of them in a great way...i will also admit that my upbringing was tough, my dad past when i was 11 and my brother sruggled with drug and alcohole addiction and was a very violent person, put my poor mother through hell...now we moved to the country and my mother remarried and so happy its been great and i love it here unfortionatly we found out two yrs ago my stepdad is termanly ill which is massive stress on mum but im always strong through it all, i dont feel that the past 10yrs can just creep up on me now when im my most happiest ever and shoot me down to the point of all these physical symptoms, non are emotional only when im having an attack i wish i was dead cause it cripples me to a bed for hours and im so dissapoited i cant control my own body.....its sucha hard thing to understand, im hoping the phyc will help...i take diazapam for my attacks and metroplol for my heart rate, neither do a good job in times or distress but im staying positive that itll pass just like it came on...thanks mammo =)

[mammo]

Have you tried therapy, this can help you learn how to not obcess about your health.  Also, there is often a root cause for our anxiety, something traumatic from our past that we either haven't dealt with or just tried to forget.  Our body will force us to deal with these things eventually by presenting with anxiety and/or depression.  To us it appears there is no reason for our anxiety, but there usually is.  With therapy you can find out what this is, deal with it and get on with your life. Fear feeds our anxiety, so by learning to not obcess about your health, you'll ease your anxiety.  You know from your tests that you are fine, so "accepting" this is imperative to you getting better.  Have you addressed your anxiety with a psychiatrist so that the two of you can best decide what route of treatment is best for you?  Anxiety can be crippling, but there is help with therapy and/or medication.  Don't be afraid, you just need to seek help. You're not alone and have so much support here.  I do wish you all the best and take care!